Padma Sambhava
July 31, 2009
Beloved hearts,
This message is through my messenger, Lorraine. I am writing to you, through her, to explain the possible breakup of the organization, [Shangra-la] we founded with Lorraine in January 2003. Lorraine was sponsored as a messenger by the Great Divine Director on her birthday the prior year.
What I would like to tell you today is what is going on spiritually with the organization, your messengers and myself. I say myself, because I have been with these two individuals for a very long time, not just this lifetime. What I have released to my messenger, Lorraine, is some very pertinent information about her history with me, as well as your involvement with Kim.
It began a long time ago, so very long ago that you would not believe that the state of consciousness has not been transcended by even our most spiritual students. But alas, this state of consciousness is directly responsible for the breakup of these two messengers and our withdrawal of our sponsorship of Kim. Kim knows on inner levels that this is so, as we have kept him apprised. It is his outer consciousness that we address in the withdrawal of this mantle of messengership.
Beloved, I know this comes as a shock to many of you who have felt that this is just a normal breakup of two people who had differences between them as man and wife. But this is not so. Sadly, the karma that Kim incurred many lifetimes ago has set the stage for these two people to come together as man and wife and to be sponsored to represent the Great White Brotherhood.
Our goal is to inform you of the state of consciousness that caused this karma and your involvement with it as a community. Many of you have already made your choice as to what you believe happened between Kim and Lorraine and who you will place your allegiance with if the organization splits apart and these two people go their separate ways.
We have been working with Lorraine today to bring about some healing in Kim that would open up the door to allow him to hear and read this message and accept the truth that we bring. I know it is difficult to know at the present time who to trust and who is able or not able to still deliver messages of the Light and Truth. But bear with me as I present the story and then you may decide.
Kim and Lorraine Brought Together for a Higher Purpose
The karma this former messenger of ours created began back in Lemuria. It began with the thought and dream to create a school to teach mankind how to create with the energy of their minds. Although this sounds like a harmless enough activity, what started out as an innocent experiment, escalated into a profound planetary change across this planet. The subsequent change in the consciousness of the people of God in Lemuria, eventually caused the catalyst that created the inroad for Lucifer and his lieutenants to infiltrate at the highest levels of the temples dedicated to the Mother Light which you know as the Maxim Light.
Whether you were there or not in the beginning of this school, you have all participated in one way or another in it as you evolved on this planet, as it has infiltrated every facet of the mass consciousness. Whether you can understand this karma depends on where you are today in your ability to break free of its hold upon your being. My messenger, Lorraine, has transcended this consciousness and was thereby given the opportunity to work with Kim as spiritual partners in this life. It was he who instantly recognized Lorraine in this life, and sought to start a relationship with her. He was prepared at inner levels, as well as she, to do this mighty work of transmuting this karma. And he was well prepared to jump into the fray and tackle what he knew he had to balance and that Lorraine could help him.
Unfortunately, once the newness wore off of living together with a soul like Lorraine, he fought the good fight to break away from what he had ensnared himself into. He did not know in his outer consciousness what their relationship would entail, but he sensed that they had a spiritual mission together. But as the day-to-day living progressed, he experienced a very sincere disappointment that Lorraine did not live up to the ideal of what he thought she was when he had his inner vision I gave him.
As time wore on, difficulties arose in their marriage. They experienced a tremendous difficulty in communicating because neither one of them really knew each other. They met and married and conceived a child, Melissa, within weeks. Once Lorraine realized she was pregnant, she sunk into a deep depression. The resulting split from her usual strong, assured personality caused her to experience a rejection of Kim. Fortunately, he withstood her negative treatment of him and they went on to endure many more trials, some of which you know from them and some they have never told you. Lorraine endured a very dark time as Kim was persecuted by the Immigration Services in the U.S. and he was denied the right to work in the U.S. This karma was brought about because he sought a way to become legal in the United States that was not legal.
After many years and much struggle to keep their heads above the water and food on their table, they both decided to sell their home and try and get out of debt. Lorraine has always been courageous in her ability to meet any challenge, and this was no exception. She never held anything against Kim for the struggle they endured because of the choice he made prior to their marrying. She 100% supported him to help him get his legal status returned.
As the years moved on, their struggles continued, but on a much deeper spiritual level. This time it was due to Lorraine's decision to take up healing as her major work in life. She continued to get various educational courses to support her choice and eventually found the Integrated Kinesiology work under another heading. What began as an innocent way to fulfill her desire to serve as a healer turned into a major turning point in her life - and Kim's. He allowed her a certain space to pursue her studies and practice, but when it came to inner communication that followed he found the situation most intolerable. He was not supportive of her direct contact with us and caused her much pain for many months as she sought some way to show him that she truly was communicating with the real Spiritual Beings Above.
Our work was only beginning with her, and it was an epic period for both of them. Under our prompting to Lorraine, Kim was given to read Lorraine's spiritual journal with us. After reading this journal he accepted that she was truly being God taught from us. What followed was a very healing and growing year for Lorraine. She was sponsored by El Morya, who today you know as Master More [a name given to him by Kim Michaels' Conscious You]. Under his guidance, she not only helped many people, but she quickly balanced her remaining personal karma. In just a few short years, Saint Germain approached her and told her he was taking on her remaining karma so that she could continue on in a greater service to us.
Lorraine has always been dedicated to truth, truth as the highest principle for her to embody. And she dedicated many years to seeking our higher wisdom to tutor her on these truths. I am not hereby saying she was perfect in her life, as she knew she was not. Yet she maintained a high integrity which some could see and label as over zealous or having a very strong sense of responsibility. But because of this ability to maintain this state of consciousness, she became a trusted member of the embodied masters embodied on earth.
Now I have not spoken of Kim as I went through many years of Lorraine's life, from the early 90's until just before we anointed her as messenger for us in 2002. What happened with Kim was he continued to grow and work on his psychology and made good progress and inroads into areas he knew he had to work on. But when it came time for Lorraine to play more of an outer role in the marriage, he abruptly stopped his progress on some important matters, one of which was his masculine identity.
Lorraine was given guidance by El Morya to move the entire family from Montana to Utah. And without any real explanation to her that she could give to Kim, she had to somehow convince him that this was a genuine and necessary move for their growth. What transpired was many struggles between them as he fought the request and she was pressured by us to continue the move. She was almost torn asunder by her loyalty to Kim as his wife and her new-found loyalty to us. But she prevailed, and under the guidance of El Morya, gave Kim the exact concepts and understanding that he needed to make the major change in his life.
They quickly progressed to end their cycles in Montana and moved to Utah, just barely in time to avoid the ensuing calamity that was coming down the pike of the former sponsored organization of the Summit Lighthouse. As they settled into Utah, Lorraine found her niche in a very Mormon society and Kim found work as well. But his life was torment for years to come. He found himself under strong leaders who did not have the wisdom and understanding of spirituality that he had, and neither the desire to be open to his wisdom. This hurt him very much and he got little support from Lorraine for his sufferings, as she did not identify with what he was going through.
This further separated him from her, as he made his way through those years and endured their life together that held little joy with no spiritual community that he could be a part of. Lorraine on the other hand, made tremendous progress and found herself accelerating her relationship with us as she struggled through many severe tests we gave her, including the test of the Dark Night of the Spirit. But she was generally happy once she got out of the Dark Night. Kim also went through the Dark Night but did not win his victory until after giving up and surrendering his desire to be accepted in the world and become someone people would look up to as the wise one in their midst.
Kim and Lorraine Start to Take Divergent Paths
But after this point they both took very divergent paths. Lorraine started writing for us in the privacy of her bedroom, as she was laid off from her job after the September 11th attack on the Twin Towers. Kim went his separate way and began journaling with the Great Divine Director and on to commune with Jesus, breaking new ground in his ability to play a more outgoing role of power. Up until that point Lorraine often broke ground by being the first one to challenge the opposition from the community for her healing work and communication with us, as well as her spiritual attainment. Kim started the Ask Real Jesus website training course and preparations and Lorraine was later guided to start healing sessions for people giving them direction from the Great Divine Director. Neither of them were working at the time and bringing in very little money. But their hearts desire was to serve and we saw their dedication to give their lives to us regardless of no monetary benefits.
As the Great Divine Director worked with Lorraine, he taught her how to take dictations. She became proficient enough at it to give people short messages from him on their spiritual progress. After several more initiations and training she was ready to take up her mantle and join us at a higher level of a sponsored embodied messenger for us. We gave her the news in private and asked her to relate it to Kim. And then she was asked to ask him if he too would like to become a messenger and he agreed.
He was never officially anointed as Lorraine was. She was brought before the Karmic Board a month before the outer mantle was dropped. And she had to announce to all her friends and her former spiritual group that she was the new messenger for the Great White Brotherhood. This she bravely did, knowing that the rejection of her would be great.
Kim was never given this initiation, nor was he officially anointed. Lorraine's anointing occurred at the retreat of the Great Divine Director's on the night of her 50th birthday. Kim never questioned us as to why this was so, he simply accepted the fact that he was a messenger for Jesus and that was enough. Six months to the day, after Lorraine was anointed, she received the prompting to give her first public dictation. She had discontinued the practice of giving spiritual messages from the Great Divine Director the day she became a messenger and never once sought to take a message from us until we prompted her six months later.
What transpired was that she was directed each day, from several different Cosmic Beings, to take messages from them. After one month she had taken over sixty dictations from us, and doing a fairly good job of carrying the light, regardless of her ineptness at delivering messages and preparing them for publication. It was the light in those messages that awoke many to this organization. Some of which are not with them today, nor were they meant to remain with them. It was a very challenging time for her, as her dictations were delivered from hand to hand and ridiculed and mocked as false hierarchy messages by former and present day Summit Lighthouse students. But she prevailed and we moved on to start our work with Kim.
Contrary to Lorraine's work of taking her dictations in the privacy of their own home, Kim's first dictation was given in Montana in front of former and present day Summit Lighthouse students, most of which are not a part of this organization today. He did an excellent job and we began to use him more over the next few months. Finally he was ready for his biggest initiation yet, and that was being directly sponsored by Mother Mary to deliver her rosaries, which he has done wholeheartedly since.
Delivering Messages to Separate Audiences
Over the years the two of them have worked side-by-side in separate rooms and separate computers to deliver our messages and do so to different, select audiences. They had to learn how to follow inner direction and promptings, regardless of the source. One big test for Kim was Lorraine's constant direction to him, most of which came from us and was prompted by us to test them both. They went through difficult times as they found their way in the discovery of what it means to follow one's own inner direction and what was and was not appropriate to deliver to another.
Lorraine had the most difficult time because of her allegiance to truth. She felt the messages she received from us were true and she had a responsibility to relate that truth to Kim—or anyone else if she was asked to do so. This caused her to eventually learn that what mattered the most for us was that she first and foremost gave allegiance to the truth within, not to us. A very difficult test for her because she had to put aside her own innate wisdom in forgoing her allegiance to a higher authority she thought was above her own Being.
Later we tested Kim on his ability to give messages to others and he came out with flying colors in when and how to deliver them. He got so good at knowing when to keep quiet and when to speak, that he began to get very irritated with Lorraine's inability to do so. He also began to elevate himself as superior to her in his wisdom and that her methods of communication with us was beneath him. She had to endure many remarks from him that denigrated her abilities and truth. But again, she endured as always and continued to love and honor him for his choices. They did not always have an easy time, as you can see, in fact, they had a much more difficult marriage than most. And yet they endured it all with a fair amount of affection and tolerance for each others differences.
As we moved Lorraine into Being, Kim continued with his work with Mother Mary and the rosaries. Lorraine again broke ground and introduced the concepts of the God flames under the direction of El Morya. She also developed the new spiritual I AM THAT I AM chart, with some help with Kim's software skills. As the years went by we began to use Kim exclusively for outer dictations and only occasionally worked with Lorraine behind the scenes, working personally with students who wanted deeper spiritual lessons with her. She did a very good job of teaching many to stand up and Be. She gave a strong example to the community, that was often rejected because of her strength.
Rejecting the Divine Feminine Within
And now we get to the crux of this message and the spiritual karma that Kim has not balanced and that I have begun to unfold for you in the history of their lives together. When Lorraine developed her more masculine side of herself, she simultaneously healed a major break in the mass consciousness with the rejection of the feminine in man and woman. She at first thought she had done a soul retrieval on her own rejected feminine self, which she describes in her books, but later realized that this had a greater import than just her own soul. She had taken on the mass consciousness of the fallen woman due to sexual enslavement by men. She was always unable to feel complete as a woman and bore many things in her physical body to enhance this karma to help her identify with the severity of the problem on the planet.
After this major healing of the feminine self in man and woman, she moved on to bring her masculine self to the forefront and in balance with her feminine self. But due to Kim's lack of understanding of this most important balance, he began to reject her masculine side as too domineering and controlling. He was only more encouraged to reject that self in her as she began giving him direction from us. What followed was he retreated more and more into himself around her and rejected both her feminine and masculine sides. He rejected her feminine because she did not meet his ideal woman, which is caused from his creation "ideal" after the separation out from his feminine self after the fall in Lemuria. Since then, he continued to carry an image of an ideal woman that was not masculine whatsoever, and had little or no outer power. This did not fit the book of what Lorraine presented to him and he could not deal with her from henceforth. He literally only tolerated her and used her to fulfill his needs.
El Morya then gave them instruction, through Lorraine, to be celibate. This was a very painful period for them both as they sought to find themselves apart from the sexual union and find their space with each other. But after several years they had made progress and Master Jesus prompted Lorraine to begin a sexual union again. Although this experiment went well during their years of celibacy, they both quickly fell back into old patterns and they made no further progress. They completely failed to heal this issue between them, but not all completely their fault. Their issue was a major obstacle in the mass consciousness and Lorraine's the greater burden, some of which she shared with the community at the Germany conference last fall.
But as you are aware from Kim's announcement, he had already begun looking for fulfillment outside of the marriage. Although he was not outwardly aware he was doing so, he still was, as he was sorely disappointed with Lorraine and her lack of qualities he deemed spiritual and necessary in any woman. Later, he eventually allowed his feelings to come to the fore and give credence to his desires, which is much better than suppressing them and destroying the unity between two people who are supposed to be representing the office of twin flames for the community.
Kim's Superior Wisdom Believing His is the Doer
Kim may highly object to all this exposure I have hereby released, but this is not his choice. He forgo that choice when he announced publicly to the community his desires for another woman and his total rejection of Lorraine, couched in intellectual words that left little room for the imagination. What occurred in the fall of Lemuria was a school that was developed to promote the mental qualities that were to be uplifted to the divine quality of Wisdom.
As you might be aware from Jesus' teachings through Kim, the process of taking messages is a very mental quality. He has to expand his mental body in order to reach up to Jesus' level and attune to him. And so after years of this mental work, he has become very adept at using his mental body to think like Jesus and elevate himself into a master psychologist, thinking his wisdom is superior to others who work more on the Being level of intuition and knowing. This is not so.
As some of you are aware from the wisdom teachings Jesus released through Lorraine on IS, these teachings you cannot intellectualize or begin to understand, no matter how you elevate your mental body. It is not a mental teaching and thereby Jesus could not release those teachings through Kim. But Jesus' other messenger, [Lorraine] he could release these teachings through, because she was able to release all desires to elevate herself above anyone, and most of all, above using her mental body to give direction to anyone.
What has transpired in the community is that there has been a dividing already, long before this public announcement of this breakup. People have either an affinity with Kim or with Lorraine, feeling more a connection with either of their styles and messages. Not that this is wrong in itself, but it has carried a great weight and limitation of growth in the community. This lack of growth was cited by Kim as Lorraine's responsibility, for her lack and ability to let go of her power and direction, and most importantly, her Victory flame.
Kim Rejects Lorraine's God Flame
For years she tried to express that aspect of her God flame, only to have herself hammered down by Kim time and time again. She decided in order to keep harmony in the marriage she would only express her divine direction and hopefully the other aspect of her God flame, peace. But it did not work well at all, as her peace was rarely found and Kim received the full force of her power and direction.
He, on the other hand, was not expressing his God flame at all. To date, he believes his God flame is Loving Truth. Although that is close to what it is, in reality, it is Peaceful Victorious Perceptivity. What is very noticeable here is that his flame carries victory as well, of which he rarely expresses and denies in Lorraine.
We gave him a test through Lorraine on Wednesday, [July 29, 2009] before he left to go be with his new relationship, who is leaving the country soon. Moments before he left, we directed Lorraine to give him a message, and it was from Mighty Victory. She was not told how to deliver the message, only to do it. And to deliver a message to someone who has emphatically been telling her for two days she is too manly and domineering, took real courage on her part. But not only did she deliver the message to him, but she did so in the fullness of her God flame of Loving Victorious Divine Direction in Peace. Thereby she accelerated her victory in the face of the one person who she could never express her true self to without rejection. And beloved, within a few minutes he forthwith rejected her message as a manipulative act to turn the tables on him, and thereby rejected Mighty Victory and his own God Self. While it was a victory for Lorraine, as she was spiritual divorced from him and propelled into full oneness with her Higher Being, he was cut off from his mantle of messengership.
The message to him was simple. Tell him that we had heard their prayers and have come to help him see a block that he has held for a very long time. And that block was the belief of finding a perfect spiritual and human woman to fulfill himself. And to tell him that he was not doing God's will in the direction he was heading. Although he admitted this was correct, he knew of this block and had been surrendering his new found love many times over, he could not. Lorraine told him that this was because he hadn't really surrendered.
Surrender does not come from the mind. and the "wisdom" he has elevated to be above Divine Direction and love. Surrender comes from the heart's desire to be true to the reality of Being. And although in his hurrty to leave Lorraine he promptly locked his keys in the car and had to return believing this might be a message to to see if we would help him further, we did not, because he had locked us out, the symbology in his outer act of locking himself out of the car.
What I have unfolded for you so far is a very heavy karma on the planet that this soul of Kim has taken on and helped create. But he has further work to do with me besides healing these issues already mentioned, before he can reestablish himself as a messenger for us. And that work has to do with his image of the Divine Father and the Divine Mother. His image of himself, in either role, is very poor, and he outwardly denies the Divine Father through Lorraine as well as the Divine Mother in her because she is not meeting the standards of his graven image of the Mother.
How can you, as a community, grow spiritually when your own messenger has not the full understanding of the Oneness of Father Mother God through himself and his spiritual partner he has been with for 20 years? You cannot. And so we have accelerated this test for the community, by bringing him together with his desired new spiritual partner, and used Lorraine to bring this closer relationship for them both, in order to help all see that union is not about any graven image of what you think from the level of the mind and the false sense of wisdom of what God IS.
Go forth now and heal this bridge of unreality that separates all from the truth of Being. I have asked Lorraine to share her truth with the community as well. So she will prepare a letter to you to go along with my message.
In the flaming Presence of Loving Power I AM,
Padma Sambhava