Alpha Therapy

Lorraine I AM with I AM THAT I AM

July 27, 2009

Note: This session was brought about during a school of Being session with a student, Helen Parmas, and Kim Michaels guiding the session. Kim had just told me that he had a higher spiritual oneness with Helen that was above our relationship and his relationship with Shangra-la.

Lorraine:

I have just entered my heart chamber and approaching the door to the inner chamber.

The vision for me is sort of like a ballroom. An open room with shiny floors and walls and nothing else. And I am just spinning around and I am saying I "AM Free, I AM Free, I AM Free!"

I could go over to the door so I thought I would share with you that, as why I am not going over to the door. So I sense there is a split. If I went to the door, that would be a mature adult thing to do and go through it. But if I stayed in the room I would be a free spirit not necessarily irresponsible but child-like and free. So I see the two choices. I am not necessarily making either choice.

A feeling and pressure in my right ear and so I listened (as pressure in the ear is a body symptom promting you to listen within). My higher self said; take this down. "The life of a queen is not free. Her responsibilities are great and therefore she does not feel free to Be."

Me: To be free is possibly that being that dances around in the room. But she is as a child, and children are usually free of responsibility that an adult has.

And the way out is the door so I will go toward the door. And of course there is freedom there too, once I go through the door.

I was contemplating the garden that I see outside the door and I thought of the word soaring, so I started soaring and immediately I leave the garden and go more into a planetary view, not just earth but planets.

Helen: how do you sense who you are?

I don't sense anything of who I am, but the words come to me "Cosmic Being". And the words "there is more to life than earth." Which is not a profound statement just a matter of fact.

Kim: But for the queen it might be profound.

But I don't see myself as a queen. My finger pointer finger is aching on the right side (another body symptom leading to pointing at something). So that is pointing the finger at something. I asked my higher self and he said you are the one pointed out. (People are pointing their finger at me. Possibly Kim trying to accuse me of something?) I said for what? And he said, for "Being" he said, "you have Being". So I said to I AM , "so what? Why would someone point the finger at me for Being?" So he said, well are you well liked? So I said back to him, "Does it matter?" As I know you are not well liked for Being. Jesus was crucified for Being. But I receive o response from I AM . And then he said, "It only matters if you care."

Kim: So do you care?

I told I AM I care for Being for you, the I AM. I asked, "what else?" and he said. "come with me."

I think we are back to the planets. I think the left hand pointer finger now is aching. He said,  "no it is still you." (Meaning it is still me that is being pointed at although it is on my left hand this time, which usually refers to the world. The right hand refers to your personal self.) He continues, "But remember what you have come for."

Me: Implying, I think, remember what you came to earth for.

Higher Self: "The action of love is great but the sorrow is ever greater."

Helen: Sorrow for what?

He tells me, "You have been forgotten."

Me: What he is implying is "You" have been forgotten. The I AM You has been lost to the "I oneness You" philosophy that Helen and Kim promote. But I didn't know this at the time.

Helen: Does it mean you yourself have forgotten yourself.

He said, "You" are a nobody there. And that does not matter. It only matters who you are. So I asked, "Well who am I from a higher perspective? But I don't see anything. (He was talking about the I AM You of Being that was forgotten.)

Kim: Could it be to look around something that is obstructing your vision.

No, I think he means inside us. So you look at the light within. Now I don't see anything but light. It is not anything I can describe I see only light.

Helen: Describe this light.

I asked I AM could you describe it to me? And he said, "Can you describe Being?" I can't, not really. There are no words.

Helen: Do you feel that you are one with this light?

Not necessarily.

Helen: Do you see this light as victorious that you are?

No, it doesn't have any description. I can't describe it. I mean it has no color, it is more white, maybe yellowish to some degree but mostly white.So I think my nose is itching--a bridge? (Top of nose is a body symptom that means "bridge" to something."

Helen: Does the bridging relate to the divine mother father unity?

I AM says, "No, try again."

Helen: It is how you are manifesting this light who you are on this planet.

I AM says, "No try again."

Kim: Are you the bridge?

No, not really.

Kim: Do you need to cross a bridge to see something?

"Ah, consider this," he said. But then he said, "Consider you are a bridge but more."

Helen: You are the bridge,  sense what bridge you are?

No. (Helen is caught in me, me, me. This is universal.)

Kim: Is this the spiritual to material world bridge?

He said, "no" to me, then "look".

Helen: Ask your higher self to show you.

Well, the picture is just a river with a small bridge over it, more a walking path.

Helen: Is it you have to guide people to somewhere so that they can start seeing their beings, like from one shore to the other shore of the river?

I am asking him why would I take someone over the river of life? But he said, "no, you are more. It is not the river of life." Which I don't know what it means.

Helen: Does the river mean separation between something?

Hmm, he said, "Consider you are separate."

Helen: Do you feel that you are separate from this light which you really are?

I am asking but not getting any answer.

Kim: What do you feel. Don't ask anyone, but your self.

Helen: If you try to walk over this bridge how does that feel?

I am only looking down at the bridge. I can project a person across the bridge and pretend that it is me but that doesn't get you anywhere.There is no feeling, there hasn't been any feeling. There is only images. Actually there is no feeling.

Kim:  So is that an issue you need to look at, that there is no feeling?

Silence and vision is all there is. So it is like no vision, no words nothing.

Kim: So is that because there is no flow, something is blocking the flow?

Still silence, still no vision.

Kim: Have you numbed your feelings in order to avoid pain?

Helen: How do you see yourself in this great silence?

No, it is not a great silence, there is just nothing.

Helen: Ask your higher self to show you what you need to see or take you where you need to go or ask the light that you are to take you where you need to go.

My higher self said, "no beloved do not go there." I had tried to imagine taking the light within and shining it in the darkness and it is like they don't want me to go there.

Helen: So if you are light why do you have to take the light within you.

Well I meant it is more like just allowing that sun center to shine so that it will obviously help see and shine the way.

Kim: So why would he say that?

Because that is not what I am supposed to see.

Kim: Is there something in the void that you need to feel or experience.

No, just feel the nothing.

He said to breathe in the nothing and I am breathing it in and then he asked me, "What happened?"
It is hard to explain. It is more like like breathing it in I feel my face lights up as I am looking at what appears to be me. I don't see any form. I imagine it is something like form, but then there is only light. Like consciousness where...tingling on left forehead. (Tingling on left forehead means mankind's understanding is needed)

Helen: Do you need to see something?

No, the need to understand what happened. And then the crown tingles. (Meaning something wise just happened through me a sharing of wisdom.) All I can say is you breathe in the void and then all there is is light.

Helen: Then you are all in the light?

Well again, this is more like I am seeing this happen, more like I am not experiencing the light through witnessing this experience. The void I didn't see it, just experienced it. The light is more like I am seeing it.

Helen: So you see it inside of yourself. You see you are light but you don't experience it is that what you want to say?

No, I am well capable of feeling the light. There is no experience within this temple body that I am feeling right now. It is more outside of myself.

Helen: The only reason you don't experience it is because it is outside of yourself? Could you ask what to do to be one with the light so you can experience the light within you?

He said earlier, you are the light. But if I try to focus my attention on the light center, it is still is me looking at something not experiencing it. So you might ask, "Is this issue something that is in the consciousness that I have come to experience or take on?"

Helen: Just focus and think do you see any consciousness that you are taking on to block this light within you experiencing it? Or is it that you have to experience the block to overcome it?

I asked I AM and he said, "Look beloved, see the light." But then I don't see the light.

Helen: You see the light outside of yourself, right?

No, it is not necessarily outside of myself, but looking at it from outside myself, then you are not experiencing it, just watching it.

Helen: Can you just merge and go there and make the decision that I can be one with my light and I don't have to look at it outside it is within me?

(Me: What happened was I was experiencing my higher self in action. I was taken to the vision of my higher self to see him in action, not to experience him.)

I think I have changed my vision and experience more like a flame. Almost like ripples, but like behind or inside something. And then the third eye is tingling. (Meaning I am now seeing a higher vision or have activated my Third Eye Chakra.)

Kim: What is it inside?

Like I said it is like a flame.

Kim: Inside of something?

Like I said a flame.

Kim: The flame is you?

I asked if the flame is me and he said, "No, it is the world."

Helen: Is it so that you experience your flame within this world, but you do not still see that you are this flame?

I am kind of in another vision of the inside, so to speak. Possibly the closest I could describe is if you were deep under the ocean but you have this sense of light that you can barely see. My third eye is still tingling. (Meaning I am receiving an inner vision.)

Helen: You might want to see something that is blocking you to accept this light within you?

He said, "Beloved you are the light." which is what he said before.

Helen: But for some reason you don't believe it or don't accept it?

No I would say that if I was in the world, I am in the darkness and the object is to be the light in the world and of course the world is dark. So it is just "Being the light" in the world.

Helen: If you are light how can there exist darkness around you even if you are in the dark world. You are light and light consumes everything including darkness?

He said, "Beloved, they are trying to suppress you. They are trying to put your light out."

Helen: Who?

The world. (The fallen angels in the world.) But it is not me of course.

Helen: It is your flame.

And of course these are only images. It is to get a sense of what is going on. So the right temple I feel something, the crown, left knee. Left knee is being knighted (or others' need to bend the knee) and temple is personal, right side. It could mean knighted in the temple and the crown is wisdom. So be knighted and crowned with wisdom.

Helen: Is this temple you?

I AM said, "Bend your knee beloved and I will show you."

And it feels like light is entering my temple. It started in the heart and went down to the soul and base, probably all the chakras from the heart down.

Helen: Breathe in this light.

You don't have to, because it is not going in through the breath.

Helen: Just absorb it and sense it sense how your chakras start working.

I hear, "Beloved I AM, beloved I AM, beloved I AM, I AM free!"

Helen: So to speak you are actually free even if you are in this world and one with your light, you are still free even if you have your outer responsibilities.

Kim: What are you sensing now?

Nothing, I think Helen's words kind of took me out of that space.

Kim: So are you still one with the light?

I don't feel it in my chakras anymore.

Kim: So how did the words take you out of that into responsibility...

The I AM says, "You are quick to perceive injustice. (Me. Meaning I am quick to understand where injustice is and perceive it. He means Helen's statement to me "you are still free even if you have your outer responsibilities" took me out of that space. Remember in the beginning he told me "The life of a queen is not free. Her responsibilities are great and therefore she does not feel free to Be.")

Kim: So how does that take you out of being free?

Crown is tingling. (Wisdom is coming through me.) I have been going back and forth in a discussion with my Higher Self. He asks me, "Where is your peace, where is your peace?" (I lost my peace in the responsibilities that are great.) And I said, "I will just go back to the light." And he said, "No you need to go here."

Helen: What is this place here?

He said to me, "You are carrying so much of the world opposition." (Me: So he is leading me to stay in this place of darkness that is like in the sea or maya.)

Kim: In the form of injustice? Or opposition to justice?

Injustice is not real. (According to the teachings I received in the Summit Lighthouse and so I said that.)

Kim: It is not real? So when you said you are quick to perceive it youfeel you have to do something about it because you see it as real?

I AM said, "Where is the light beloved, look for the light." I go to the light and it takes me within and my chest is like there is a weight on it, from the heart to the throat, more on the throat. I would say this is like, I think this is feeling like  "unable to breathe" energy but a weight.  (The injustice is this pressure on me keeping me from Being Loving Victory and Divine Direction, my God flame.)

Helen: Is this the world energy that you are carrying?

Yes.

Helen: If you are light your light can consume this energy almost instantly.

It is not that easy. It is not meant to be consumed. (You are here to overcome the opposition and Be More, regardless of the resistance.)

Helen: What do you feel you have to do with this energy?

Just BE, BE, BE, show the world Being. It is kind of like a moth coming out of the cocoon you have to break through that resistance, it is encased and you have to BE that butterfly coming out, you have to be that light coming out. Obviously, there has to be some force there, you can't just sit in that cocoon. You have to force the light out. You have to radiate it out through your will, to break that resistance.

Helen: Do you sense you have to force the light or do you see that light already has this ability to break through everything and all resistance?

I think it is will. The will is the force. Obviously you can't force light. Light IS. We are talking about the resistance to the light IS.

Kim: So where is the resistance? Is the resistance in you and letting the light flow?

No it is outside, like it is encasing. It would be the will of the people. The will of the people encases the light.

Kim: In them? Not in you?

The image is this that I receive. I am standing there radiating the light and there is this wall that just resists it. The wall is not me and not caused by me. It is the will of the people. The will of those who resist Being and do not want others to Be. It is like trying to shove light in a box, like if you had hands and you were trying to stop the light with the hands. (This is the pressure from the hands of the people unwilling to Be, trying to stuff you back into the box. Forcing you back, suppressing your Being.)

Kim: How does this relate to Being. Does this prevent you from Being? Does this resistance change who you are?

No, it can't do that.

Kim: Does it bother you that there is so much resistance in Being?

I don't get any sense of being bothered by it. It is just understanding what to do about it.

What was your previous question Kim?

Kim: Whether this takes you out of Being that such resistance to the light or that the light is not received. Do you feel that the light should be received and do you see that as an injustice?

The I AM says that there is nothing that can take you out of Being. You are. All I see is this strong light that radiates. All I can say is it has to do with free will. The light cannot ... it is the people's choice. They are trying to suppress Being. They are trying to force it away. They are trying to stop it. I have to go back to why I said the force is needed before.

Another image might be a seedling, you know how a plant and seedling can force its way up through the hardest surface? (Is that seedling acting unjustly? Is it wrong to work its way through a hard surface created by someone else as it seeks More?"

Helen: The same happens with light?

Another analogy is like rebirth, new birth and the other image is like when it comes out of the cocoon it is like an explosion, once it is out it is out, you cannot stuff a butterfly back into its cocoon. Nothing can stop the light from doing its work. It has to work and the resistance is to you.

It might go back to the energy of loving too much to the flame of divine direction that I AM, it must tie to that Divine Direction to some degree, this resistance might be tied to Divine Direction more than other people's God flames. Not that there is not resistance to other beings, but maybe there is something here directly connected to my God flame of Divine Direction.

Kim: Do you feel responsible when the light is not received?

No.

Kim: You talk about rebirth it doesn't require force it requires surrender.

Well, rebirth might not be the right word. The light is not being reborn the light IS. Nothing can change that.

Kim: Something in you being reborn?

No. It is escaping from the imprisonment.

Kim: What is the imprisonment?

The walls of resistance. (Created by the fallen angels and the godless who seek to stop Divine Direction.)

Helen: You sense that this is imprisoning you, your Being?

Yes, but as I said. Ask more specific questions.

Kim: Where is that wall of resistance located?

It is the energies of the people.

Kim: But where is it located have you taken it on somehow?

Helen: Because it is separate from you how can it affect you.

It is not that I have taken it on, its that there is resistance to my Being. (My Being Divine Direction and the Will of God.) Okay, so you come, you are the light and the wall hits you. What you take on is Being the light, not the resistance.

Kim: Okay, if the wall hits you that would imply that it is affecting you?

That would imply there is a force against you.

Kim: But if you are light how can there be a force against the light?

I told you it is free will. (It is the free will of the people that is the force.)

Kim: But the light itself..

You are not here to consume their darkness it serves no purpose. You are here to Be

Kim: So what is the need to force if you are here in Being. There is no force in Being is there?

I feel the energies expanding from the heart going left to right that is Alpha and Omega flow within my Being, the giving and receiving spreading out through my being. (This is the I AM THAT I AM merging in my Being.)

Helen:  You said that the darkness feels like imprisonment and that you had the vision that the light is covered by all the hands.

I said that is what it appears to be like it was not a vision but a description to describe it.

Kim: But it seemed like the resistance has somehow affected how you see yourself or your Being?

The higher self said, You have only to try beloved." I am not sure what that means to me.

Helen: To try to Be through this resistance?

Kim: To be non attached?

Because the light doesn't care .....light just IS, light shines.

Kim: Is there an attachment to the outcome like we have heard in several sessions of Alpha therapy?

What did he say before? What is the last thing he told me?

Kim: You have but to try.

I am asking but I am not getting any answer.

Helen: You said when you asked your higher self, your higher self doesn't really care about this outcome if you light is received or not. So why do you care if there is a resistance?

I don't see myself as caring. What did he just say to me.  Let me remember. The name is I AM THAT I AM?

Kim:  Does this relate to loving too much?

What is that? He said, "Look, look, look."

Helen: Do you look inside yourself, do you see inside yourself?

The I AM THAT I AM now speaks.

I am taken back to the image where I described  being inside the flame and where you are inside the earth. Is this what I am to look at I AM THAT I AM? So he said you are the flame in the world. There is no stopping the flame and then he hesitates or pauses in saying....but, there is resistance. And he said, Would you like to see that resistance?" And of course I would.

Kim: Do you see the resistance?

I get red eyes and pointing fingers that I see. My fingers are throbbing and the image I see are red eyes.

Helen: That are outside of this light?

Kim: So do you feel that there is someone who is not worthy of this light, not worthy to receive it, so you have to hold back the light to some people?

The I AM THAT I AM said, "You know who is worthy. I know who is worthy. You know who is worthy.
I AM the light where I go you are. Where I AM you are. Where you are I AM. We are one."

I AM THAT I AM: There is no resistance in the light. There is only light. The resistance is without.
(The hand is throbbing between the thumb and index finger. That would maybe be the web. Web... is that the web outside the light?

I AM THAT I AM: The web of the resistance is great  because they hate the light. Do you think that is worthy of receiving the light?  I know you know (to me) but do they? (speaking to Helen and Kim.)

Kim: But aren't all worthy of receiving the light?

I AM THAT I AM: There is no worth in darkness.

Kim: But won't the light consume the darkness or judge the darkness. If the light isn't..

He says to you Kim, "Beloved, look at my light, it is great. Where art thou? In the light as well. We are light. Where I go I go being that light. The systems of worlds that are outside that light are encased in darkness, but that is not the darkness we speak of here. There is darkness beyond the outer darkness. There is a darkness so strong that no light can penetrate. It is a wall, beloved. Great thickness and density. There is no light that can force this wall down. It is not meant to. You can shine your light all you want and you will get no where with it. Do  you want to spend the rest of your life shining your light only to be resisted by this darkness?"

Kim: Of course not.

I AM THAT I AM: Then look with me at the darkness for a moment. And imagine God there. God cannot exist in this darkness. God is not wanted in this darkness. God is a fallacy in this darkness. Where AM I, I am in the light, the light is joy, is spirit, is love. There is no existence in this darkness. It only remains because you allow it thinking one day you can penetrate that wall, you can love all the more, you can Be all the more, you can save all the more. But there is no MORE. There is no MORE there. God is MORE.

Helen: Where is this wall of darkness where God cannot exist?

I AM THAT I AM: Outside of Life. Outside of Being. Outside of MORE.

Kim: But God is beyond form. It is more that God cannot be expressed in the darkness?

I AM THAT I AM: God is everywhere in the consciousness. But this is a place with no consciousness. It is an existence created from nothing yet having every right to be there because (I am not sure because life gives it form? I am not sure I got that right. The inner left eye is itching.)

I AM THAT I AM: My beloved, let me speak, he said to me. The confusing part is you don't believe that anything can exist outside of God and although that is true there is an understanding beyond that simple expression that all is God. There is free will and beyond there the free will is the right to Be, to exist, but no more. (I am not sure I understand that.)


I AM THAT I AM: Look out and observe the darkness in the heavens. It appears lifeless and yet it is teaming with life. It carries life. This outer darkness is beyond form. What you see in people with the red eyes is this outer darkness encased in form. It seems a contradiction and it is. How can something lifeless exist in form?

Helen: Who gave them right to be here on earth if they come from darkness. Is it free will?


I AM THAT I AM: You did. Your will is to save them. How can they not honor free will. They can only seek to educate and help understand what creation is about. (My left hand fingers are stinging. Stinging. Stinging creatures have no light they suck the blood from life.)

Helen: Does it mean that they steal the light?


I AM THAT I AM: Oh yes, and more LIFE. The lifeless you see on earth is because they have no life that is needed to exist. Enter the lifeless who walk around trying to find joy in existence. But daily they give their life out to these ones.

Kim: I surrender the desire to save them.

I asked what we could do.

I AM THAT I AM: You may call to the light and I AM there. And the light cannot penetrate the darkness, thereby what does it do? Wisdom, wisdom, wisdom beloved. What do you think your wisdom is?

Helen: wisdom is light.

I AM THAT I AM: The wisdom educates the lifeless.

Helen: Do we feed our wisdom to the lifeless creatures?

I AM THAT I AM: Yes. And you understand the lifeless are not the red-eyed, the lifeless are the ones the red-eyed are living off of. So the lifeless give permission, by giving them life and we need to educate the lifeless to stop that process so the light can't come in and do the work against the free will of these people.

Helen: But who are the lifeless?

I AM THAT I AM: Don't give any name to them specifically. Just be aware that they are everywhere around you. They take your time and your energy because they have no life of their own. They want more, but always seek to give only to that which takes. The cycle must be broken. Pray for forgiveness of these ones. But never stop believing the cycle can end and that the light of truth can do this work. We cannot interfere with your plane, but you are we in existence, as we are one, and together we work here below as above. We serve one cause - the Light. But you are the forerunners. If you cannot believe what I say how can others believe. You must show the world the truth that there exists outer darkness and it cannot be changed.

Kim: How will it disappear?

I AM THAT I AM: It will cease to exist.

Kim: Is it only the mind then?

I AM THAT I AM: There is no mind in this. It is outside of the mind.

Kim: I don't understand how it can exist then.

I AM THAT I AM: Energy.

Kim: Is that the darkness I saw in my Alpha where the doubt comes from or makes the doubt possible?

I AM THAT I AM: Know the lifeless doubt.

Kim: The lifeless have doubt and those can be educated.

I AM THAT I AM: It can but it will take work because they have so much fear.

Kim: And so the red-eyed beings are in the darkness and they cannot be helped?

I AM THAT I AM: There is no life in them. There is no God. You cannot put God where God is not.

Kim: Okay. So those are the ones that I should not try to save.

I AM THAT I AM: Exactly.

Kim: Are they in embodiment?

I AM THAT I AM: You don't need to know where they are. You only need to know they exist. Your inner being knows whereof I speak. Stay in tune and trust your inner guidance. Do not give life to these ones. Do not expect anything in return from them. Trust your inner wisdom. But remember they are there. You don't need to look for them. But just remember they are there.

You have one thing to do beloved. Be the Light of I AM and Be More. Share your wisdom where you are guided, express your love of God. Be that love. Give to life where life is and share wisdom where life is not.
The time will come where all will be judged. Life can only exist this way for a certain time in time and space. But you need not know the time or the place, you only need to Be. You have given your lives again and again to wake up the lifeless. How long will you do this beloved?

Helen: Do you mean all of us?

I AM THAT I AM: All of you. You have tried. You have given your lives, you have given your love, you have given your Being. And you have been rejected again and again. So I ask you how long you will do this?

Helen: No more.

I AM THAT I AM: Then wake up! Buddha says I AM Awake!

Helen: Yeah.

I AM THAT I AM: It means I AM Awake in the light of Being. (And the third eye tingles.)

Kim: So I should not try to save the lifeless?

I AM THAT I AM: No. The lifeless will be who they will be as you will be who you will be. You are here to Be. Realize how the judgment works. Cast your light before swine and they will trample upon it. What is that to thee, follow thou me. I AM the light of the world. Where I AM you are. Cease to exist in the world outside of I AM. And see the changes that will manifest. But when you go outside of I AM you are seeking to change the world. What good will it do to change the darkness? It cannot be changed into light.

I am speaking herewith of many things and many concepts that may be slightly out of reach of mental understanding. But you know within what I am talking about. Trust the light within. Trust your inner intuition. Follow the light the inner wisdom the inner guidance. Experience being through the eyes of I AM who sees all who knows all. There is no question and doubt.The world knows not the I AM. But you do. Many of you do. The world cannot be a beautiful place as it is. But you have not come to save the world. You  have come to Be.

Lorraine: I am drawn in my attention to this place - the school, the land here.

I AM THAT I AM: This place is a sacred place because you have made it a place of Being anchoring here the light of I AM. The choice is yours to keep this flame here, to expand that light, to radiate that light. And to exist outside of (and I don't know....this darkness I guess.) Ah, the light radiates here. It radiates in such joy and abundance. And yet you experience the darkness here as well. You exist in the world of form where the darkness impedes itself upon you. You feel the pressure of the world against you. It comes in in many ways and many forces. You cannot exist in this world and be in a bubble. You are not meant to. Challenge the darkness. Don't let it exist without challenging it. It does not belong here. You do. Because you have chosen the I AM, you have chosen to Be I AM.

Darkness exists because you allow it. Why?

Helen: Where is this darkness that you speak, in us?

Lorraine: The words are incongruent Helen, this is from me. It is not what he is saying. It is like this shift, it is like this pull away from him. And your words take one out of I AM. You are the light if you are of God. There is no darkness that exists in you. It is in the world.

Helen: How the darkness from the world can come here?

Lorraine: It is here already. It is in the earth. The earth body. It is like you place your Presence here amidst the darkness and you can displace it. You know like you stick a glass in a puddle of water and it pushes the water up, but the water is still there because you have to make the choice that it no longer has existence where you are. So you can't just push it away. It won't go away.

I AM THAT I AM: Do you understand beloved. Because I think not.

Helen: What do you think that we cannot understand?

I AM THAT I AM: The wisdom whereof I speak. You do not understand the light here in this place.(At the school of Being) It exists because you anchor it.

Helen: We do understand that.

I AM THAT I AM: But you don't understand how the darkness resists. It resists Being. And do you challenge that darkness?

Helen: It is hard for me to challenge it when I don't see it.

I AM THAT I AM: Exactly. But you don't see it. It still exists. But you don't see it.

Helen: Would you help me to see it?

Kim: Is it because we are not willing to see that it cannot be changed?

I AM THAT I AM: Oh, you can be an ostrich with your head in the sand! But you know that what is outside and above your head is still there. Is it not so much an unwillingness to see the darkness. It is a non belief. You forget being in the world of form what you know in the inner. You forget the battle of Armageddon. You want to just remain in your peace and be, thinking that it could change the world around you. But beloved, you must fight the fight. I know that sounds contrary to your beings, you who are of the peace, anti-war. It is a battle between forces that don't exist..

Kim: So how do we fight that and not be entangled in it?

I AM THAT I AM: Image. Image is more oneness in Being. It is not a fight with physical hands, it is not a fight with the voice. It is Armageddon. It is a battle beyond this world. Spiritual forces. Use your vision. The power of your vision is great. Imagine what you want. See the victory.

Helen: Is the challenge enough if we do this only by envisioning?

I AM THAT I AM: No. It is the beginning though. You are neophytes.

Age: How can I help in the best way?


I AM THAT I AM: Love yourself. Ah there is a great love in you. Just turn that love on yourself. And then use that love to envision the victory.

Lorraine" Its like, this is me speaking, it is this purity that would pour out of your third eye. You know, just pure love and purity. But you have to connect with the love of  yourself first. You can't just see it outside of yourself. It comes from within and  then send it out through the chakras. It is pure. Pure white light, tinged with that pink of love. The love of creation. The love of God. The love of Being More.


I AM THAT I AM: The power of vision is the start. But there is more. There is Will and there is Victory. So it is a decision. It takes strength and courage, a sense of liberty and freedom. All attributes that you know but you don't necessarily express through your Being. You limit yourself. You say, "I can't do that. That is not my God flame." But of course you can. You can be anything you want. You can Be More. Courage. Courage to stand and face and challenge it. It is not a battle in the human sense, that you abhor. You don't need to resist. You only need to Be. So you see the world has created a place of anti-Being specifically so it can continue and exist in its form. So what is the antidote? Being of course. But Being More. Not limiting that Being.

Kim: So what is it I don't see about this?

I AM THAT I AM: Ah Kim, you are very loving, very dear soul. But where is your life to challenge this outer darkness? You don't want to. You don't want it to exist. But you don't want to face it either. Then you believe you give it reality. Although that is true, but what exists outside of your world is more of a reality than here. It exists whether you believe it or not. It is not focusing on the outer darkness either. I am not asking you to do that. I am asking you to Be.

Kim: But do I see Being as being passive?

I AM THAT I AM: You see being as More but you still are limiting in yourself.

Kim: In my interaction with other people?

I AM THAT I AM: You love people, but you don't. And you can understand from what I said why. Trust that. You don't have to love these lifeless forms. That is not loving God. That is not an expression of God.

Kim: So what is the function of challenging the darkness. Is it to shift my perspective so that I don't allow it to continue to exist?

I AM THAT I AM: You don't want it to exist but you are not willing to face it. You resist being in the face of it because then you have to face it. So it is easier to turn the other way, to turn the cheek, to do nothing. And that is a form of judgment and can be the judgment, but not that is not which I speak of.

Kim: I want to see this but there is something that is slipping.

I AM THAT I AM: You  have blocks. You are not above having blocks.

Kim: So what are they?

I AM THAT I AM: I have spoken of retreat and that (me: he is speaking "retreat" meaning retreat from battle.)

Kim: But what is the point of battling that which has no existence. It seems that there is a contradiction between battle and Being. You are just here to Be you said. I just don't see how they can be.

Helen: Does the battle mean battling wrong beliefs, wrong ideas, stealing light, stealing time. Putting wrong postings to forum that we have been talking about. Is this is what you think is challenging or battle the darkness.

I AM THAT I AM: Battle is not a dualistic concept whereof I speak. You are caught in dualism. I told you concepts are hard for your mind and Being to wrap themselves around in this world. You seek to challenge the unreal. And you can. But you have to face it. The block is facing the unreality. It exists beyond this world whether you believe it in it or not.

Kim: Can it exist beyond the material world, is it in the astral plane, the mental it can't be in the spiritual realm can it?

Lorraine: It is outside of its existence so it is not in the mental, emotional, physical or spiritual realm. It is probably out of our understanding with the linear mind.

Kim: In the void?

I AM THAT I AM: Even beyond the void.

Kim: But what is there beyond that. We have no concepts of that.

I AM THAT I AM: All you have to know is what to do. You don't need to understand it.

Kim: And then face it?

I AM THAT I AM: For you, face it. Others can already face it.

Lorraine: Speaking to you, K. Yes.

Kim: Yes, I have to face it.

I AM THAT I AM: You don't want to face it because your reality is give it no time, give it no space, and it will cease to exist.

Kim: So what is the function of facing it?

I AM THAT I AM: So you can image what you want.
Do you see that? With something with no existence you can not image it away.

Kim: With a pure image?

Lorraine: This is me speaking, when you face it you are not giving it existence by facing it which is what he saying your reality is, that if I give it attention, then I keep its existence alive.

Kim: I think if I face it I give it existence.

Lorraine: But what he is saying is that if you face it then you can replace it.

Kim: Hmm.

Lorraine: With your image. So you can't put your head in the sand as the ostrich it and ignore it because it still exists. And it is not doing anything to eliminate, you can't change it so I don't want to use change but you can't eliminate it by ignoring. And obviously there is not too many people on the planet that can do it. So those of us who need to be awake need to be awake and do what we have come to do.

I don't know if we would find anywhere in the spiritual teachings on the planet what we are talking about here.

Helen: No. Do I have the ability to face and the unreality whereof you speak?

I AM THAT I AM: Oh, Helen, to you the lifeless have hope. And I am not taking hope away from you. But I am asking you to look at your past beyond this life. Go back as far as you can go to understand your involvement with this earth, with this plane. You  have tried again and again and hope is a wonderful attribute to have. But as  you have seen through your Alpha therapy sessions, have any of you seen a way to truly break through with even the wisdom and the love, the truth. You can keep trying, but you have already.

Helen: In other words, what you are saying is that I am not quite able to face it and see it?

I AM THAT I AM: You don't want to give up hope Helen.

Kim: That can be changed?

Helen: Of course, that they can be changed. This is my decision to give up the hope.

I AM THAT I AM: You are not thereby giving up hope for life.

Helen: I meant giving up the hope to save lifeless. But the thing is am I able to see lifeless?

I AM THAT I AM: You know where they are. Many times you meet the same ones again and again and again.

Helen: The lifeless?

I AM THAT I AM: Yes. It is the same test over and over again.

Helen: Okay.

I AM THAT I AM: You love them because you love God. And it is not wrong of you to love them.

Helen: So I project my being upon them sort of because I love God.

I AM THAT I AM: You project your love upon them because you love God.

Helen: Yes, I do that.

I AM THAT I AM: And it gets absorbed by them to some degree. But it doesn't help them to grow. They can't understand. They don't want to understand. They don't want to Be.

Helen: Yeah.

I AM THAT I AM: We, of heaven, are joyful. We're joyful in the spirit. We don't experience the pain that you experience in this lifeless planet. I am not thereby saying that you are lifeless by being on the planet because it is a state of consciousness. You can be outside of that. But you don't experience the joy that we experience. You can remember it and you can tap into it. But on a day-to-day basis you are not where we are at. You can't be. You can't exist in the world and have that joy. But you need to try and maintain it and go after it and keep it alive.

Just realize it, and don't be discouraged that you can't maintain it at the levels that you would like. It is just not a place on earth that encourages joy. Remember it has been a warring planet. And there is no joy in war. There is no joy in death and untimely deaths.

But at times, like here at this place, you can be on the lake and you can tap into that joy. You can feel it when you put on your special music and get in touch with your heart flame. But don't get discouraged when you can't maintain it. It is okay. Just remember that it still there inside you, but it just can't always be expressed.

You know all this and knew all this before you came into embodiment. You know all this inside yourself. I am only saying what you already know. Sometimes you need to hear it again in the physical plane because you forget. You lose touch. It is a rough place to be, no pun intended. Don't be discouraged. You are doing well. You just need to shift a bit in your consciousness so you can understand what I am saying so you can have a greater purpose to your life and being.

You love life free. Understand those words. What does that mean?

Kim: Of those who have the life?

I AM THAT I AM: It means you set life free. Life. The quality of life . Free it! Free it from where it is entrapped. You love it free. So you take that bug and you free the life in it. Cut it free from that bug. The bug has no reality but it is a creation that is allowed to exist because those who have created this energy, this energy is that which is outpictured in this bug. Thereby it is given life, this negative energy, from those creating it. But you can LOVE it free. Bugs exist no more and now life is free. (You are not loving the bug! You are loving the energy and freeing it from its entrapment within that lifeless, destruction creature that manifests out of the evil of men.)

Helen: Yeah.

I AM THAT I AM: Maintain your equilibrium. Balance. Balance in everything you do. Balance is the key. Do not swing too far to the left or too far to the right.

Kim: So how can the three of us serve better help each other recognize each others Beings and allow them to unfold?

I AM THAT I AM: You can Be one. You are not three separate Beings. You think you are separate.

Kim: Is that because of the differences?

I AM THAT I AM: You are expressing God differently. But God is More. Open your eyes and see the oneness and expressing yourself while existing as one. Your ideals are not different. You understand sometimes different. But you are neither above or below each other. You are on a mission together.

Age: Can I help each other?

I AM THAT I AM: You are helping each other. Every time you listen, every time you express, every time you Be together. You share your oneness. Don't let anything separate you from that oneness.

Kim: So what do you need to see about each others different lineages, personalities, what do we need to see so we don't let that take us out of oneness so that we see each other differently.

I AM THAT I AM: Forgive. Forget all else - and forgive. You are holding on to your separateness as your identity. There is safety in that, so you think....

I think he is saying the word "animity."

I AM THAT I AM: You think you have that animity. Maybe a fear of that that you don't have any identity if you don't hold on to these lineages of separateness.

Kim: Yeah, you think you can hide or hold on to something.

I AM THAT I AM: But in reality the illusion is your separateness. One light. One Being manifesting in different qualities. So keep the focus on the one light, one being. No matter what differences you express, accept those differences in each other. Honor them. Cherish them. Because think of the world with everybody being the same. These differences are the joy you experience in watching another express a different aspect of God that you don't have. Take joy in that. Revel in it. That's life. That's Being. So what if things are not done your way?

Don't take life so seriously. Some of you do and some of you don't. You express fear when you express separateness. And you know you are not fearful beings, so why express the separateness? I AM is I AM is I AM. No matter how many ways I AM is expressed.

I love you and you and you. You are all You. One light. One Being.

Oh what joy we feel in heaven where oneness is there below and people know it. People share that oneness. We rarely see it on your planet. But when we do there is a joy in heaven and you can feel it. That is what you feel, you feel our joy in your oneness.

Kim: Because when we are one with each other we are one with you as above so below?

Helen: There is no one there outside of oneness?
Thereby in your oneness you experience the oneness of heaven's oneness it is like you are one.

Kim: It is what I mean.

Lorraine: I think he said the material world is calling so we have to end. (We had been working for hours and the horses were waiting for their feed and to be put up for the night.)

I AM THAT I AM: Just Be with me where I AM. I love you with all my Being. I AM More. Be with me in that More. Oh what a joy in Being More. Go in peace. And Be the More.

Lorraine: And it was like I feel him spiraling away and I hear, "I love you. I love you. I love you!