The Way of Victory

by Lorraine Michaels

May 8, 2007

Over the years of the delivery of the Word, I have followed my inner direction on what to write and when to write. And usually I would be prompted by an ascended master or the Elohim or I would not write something for the public. That has been all right with me, as writing has not been my desire in life or – I felt – my calling.

When Kim and I married about seventeen years ago, I knew I married a very talented man. Kim was and is a special person, one that every woman would thank their lucky stars they had found.

I had been previously married, as well as he, and in my first marriage I tried hard to make that marriage work. But after many years and my entering the Path in a very tangible way, we grew apart simply by my intense pursuit of the spiritual side of life. So I was very grateful to find a spouse that had the same spiritual desires to grow and expand in consciousness as I had.

To say our present marriage was preordained is an understatement. I was drawn like a magnet that pulled me from Florida to Montana so that we would find each other. He was drawn like a magnet to come to Montana from Denmark. And so from different parts of the world we met within two weeks of my moving to Montana.

My forte and interests were always in the healing of the four lower bodies. Kim’s was always in writing. He was born into this world with the desire to write and the skills to do it. Not only the skills in writing, but the skills in speaking. Over the early years of our marriage, I got use to the idea of him going around the house giving speeches! At first I would ask him who he was talking to, but he was never talking to anyone, but giving these speeches.

The Dark Night of the Soul
We had a lot of struggles in the first four years of our marriage. To say it was difficult was an understatement. And not because of our relationship. He was extremely harmonious and the first year of our marriage I did something so strange to him. Which I will explain in a moment. But the difficulty was the karma that descended upon us. It all came through Kim, as he was going through the Dark Night of the Soul. I had previously gone through it, and because we were married, I went through it again with him.

The karma he had to go through brought him in contact with several government agencies. He, not being American, was put in a difficult position to know how to deal with these bureaucracies. I was going through a very emotional time and I could not help him, although I had the skills. But I wasn’t impelled to. And that was the key. I felt prompted from within to let him go through the struggles without my interference. Because if I had of interfered I could have changed the course of some of the things we had to deal with. I had worked in an attorneys office and I knew had to write and answer petitions and I had the prior skills of working through the legal system from my divorce and child custody. But it wasn’t meant to be. We hired attorneys for some of the legal action we were involved in. And for some we didn’t hire an attorney until too late.

So I would call those years the descent into hell with the opposition to our being together and for Kim’s work and being in the United States. Eventually we won victories on some of the situations and ended others without a victory. But through it all we stayed together.

I had gotten pregnant the first year of our marriage. The baby was meant to be and a veil came over us that neither one of us thought about preventing any further pregnancies. I already had five children and my family was already one bigger than I had imagined from my youth. I knew I would have four children. Kim already had two and he knew his life’s calling was delivering the Word, not raising children. But yet this child had to come forth through us and come into the world just at that time.

She ended up being the supreme test of my motherhood, as well as to both of us in our parenting skills. But she taught us a lot and her spirit and mission in life is laudable and I know she has come into the world to make a difference. She has just graduated from her first year of college with excellent grades and she is only 16—and in the field of psychology and journalism no less!

So although we would never have made the decision to have any more children, it was in our divine plan to have one more. And we would have done everything in our power to prevent having any more children. So it was that she came into the world under what I call the veil! Whenever I am meant to do something my outer mind would resist, the veil takes over and I am doing what I never imagined I would do.

So this pregnancy was very difficult for me for many reasons. I had just moved to Montana. I had just gotten married. I had a painful separation from my children and my mother and my former spouse. I had to take my former husband to court to try and win custody of the children I had been raising. Kim and I had just bought a piece of property and a trailer and moved it to the property with all the set-up involved. And I had just started a new job. And then to top it all off, El Morya had given direction to the entire ascended master community that we should hold off having anymore children until the threat of nuclear attack from the world scene had abated.

And so we built bomb shelters in Montana just in the first year we were married. And I was the only one pregnant in the community! I felt like I was the only disobedient one around. And then the burden it placed upon our daughter in the years following was great, as she was the only one in her age group living in the community.

Anyone who is in the health field knows that when you have too many stressors at one time, something can give and you can get sick. Well I was way up there in the stressor zone. Anything new is a stressor, even pleasant things like moving or getting married.

Being pregnant is always an emotional change for a woman, and so I was emotionally changed that first year of our marriage. On top of it was the Immigration and Naturalization Service trying to deport Kim back to Denmark, plus the intensity of the bomb shelter cycle. But despite all those stresses, we spent our first year working, having fun together exploring nature all over Montana, and getting to know each other.

Healing through Unconditional Love

What I remember vividly was the way I treated Kim. As I looked back upon myself I could not figure what came over me and why I treated him so bad. But sometimes I would get out of bed and go sleep on the couch or snap at him and just be mean to him. But amazingly, throughout it all, not once in that entire first year of marriage did he snap at me, get angry with me or say anything harsh to me at all. Nothing I did moved him from his place of peace and harmony, and nothing took him from his love of me, which was always given to me freely.

In retrospect – a few years later – I uncovered what had happened. It was not only the stresses I had been under that caused my emotional state, but a very big issue with me. Kim loved me unconditionally. I could not accept that. I had never been loved by anyone unconditionally in my entire life—except maybe from my pets! I could not accept his love as true. I was determined to prove him wrong from my subconscious and soul level of my being.

But I could not prove him wrong. He loved me regardless of what I did, what I said or how I looked. And I started to look pretty strange by the end of my pregnancy because I got extremely anemic and was pale and growing big and out of shape. It wasn’t my outer beauty he was loving. Nor was it my outer display of self and ego. No, it was the inner self of the real me that he somehow saw throughout it all. And that year was the turning point in my life. Finally, I could face myself and my imperfections through his eyes. I was on my way to being healed of self-loathing.

This is a major problem for people of the light. The programming from the Catholic church and through religion, as well as society, is that women are inferior beings, we are all sinners and that for women, outer beauty is important for men to love you. But the psychological problems are with both genders, as the men have their own problems to deal with. But common to both is that we will always be sinners and imperfect.

Since I did not have physical and emotional love growing up, I got the impression that in order to be loved you had to be perfect. So as an adult I tried hard to be perfect and hide the imperfect self I knew I could be at times. When Kim loved me through my imperfections, showed so candidly to me, I allowed myself for the first time to let go of the condemnation against myself for my imperfections. I could now face them and get on with becoming whole and healed in my four lower bodies.

I knew in retrospect, that this was the gift Kim was meant to give me in this lifetime. But we had other work together that did not come about until many years later.

Our Move Into the Dark Night of the Spirit
I went on to take training in more health modalities and I started my own healing practice. Kim continued practicing writing and publishing in America. And we both held down full time jobs until I quit mine to work full time in my practice. One day El Morya came to me and suggested that we move to Utah. I was shocked and Kim was disbelieving. But eventually I, and the Masters through me, convinced him that this was God’s will for us. And so we moved to Utah about six months later.

This was a major turning point for us. It is a story that cannot be put down in just a few words. But it propelled us into the Dark Night of the Spirit and the completion of many, many tests at a higher level of being. And we passed them, one by one by one. The victories kept coming and we persevered through these tests with the understanding that came within us, not from the outside. We broke out of convention, even from the Teachings of the Ascended Masters. And we had to to attain these victories. In order to enter the path of Being one has to go within and put their inner guidance above even that of the Masters from without. So these lessons were very difficult on a spiritual level and nothing like the tests in Montana and the physical suffering we had previously endured.

Writing In the Open
As we watched from a distance, our beloved church and Ascended Master organization started to crumble, and we were pained. We watch the Messenger retire and the attack upon her—which was merciless. We watched the hornets come out of their nests and sting and sting all good people in that organization who had given their lives to the church, their messenger and God.

One day, Kim got the desire to write a deeper understanding of what was going on. And so he wrote an article about a higher spiritual truth of what was happening. He was loath to send it out to church members, especially the hornets who had taken over various leadership positions in the church. But I told Kim he had to send those articles out. After all, what was he writing them for?

And so I sent the first article out to all emails of church members I had collected over the years—hornets and all. I remember pushing the first send button, and the trepidation that came over me. I knew we could get stung by those hornets as we had witnessed them doing to other good people. And Kim knew this as well. He felt it best to keep his name detached from the articles, but just send them off incognito and get the message of truth out, never mind the writer. The writer was not important, it was the message.

And so we put out his writings, article after article. Eventually his name got attached to them. And we received back both negative and positive responses. But we were still amazed that no matter how much truth one can give a person, people can still see only what they want to see or do only what they want to do. And so the hornets would not stop their stinging and growing their hives. They only got bigger and more entrenched.

Becoming Messengers
And then one day God came to us through the Ascended Masters and taught us some deep inner teachings. We both were going the inner path separately, decreeing apart from each other, and writing—each one alone with our God selves. We did nothing spiritual together, but we were like two parallel people doing the same thing but separately. Eventually our parallel roads met and we were asked to be messengers for the Masters.

I was not interested in becoming a writer. I was a healer. I had gone on to take other courses of healing under the Masters’ directions, and I was loving everything I learned. At the same time I was asked to start writing a book and taking the word down of the various masters. And so I would write and write, practicing, but I never published them, although they were beautiful little stories. I got too busy doing other things and my attention went to dealing with the outer responsibilities.

I was put into the hornets nest to stir it up. Oh my, that was an amazing experience. I literally dreamed about those hornets one night. And I was given the insight of what was really happening.

So those hornets stirred up tried to sting Kim and I. They first went after me because I was asked by the Great Divine Director to do certain things and I did them, which brought me right into the limelight and the danger of the hornets. But the Masters always kept me one step ahead of them. And sometimes those steps were physical, where they would move me from one place around the country to the next and no one knew where I was, even Kim!

Taking Dictations and the Word of the Ascended Hosts, Cosmic Beings and Elohim
About six months later, I was prompted to take a public dictation from the Elohim—my first one. I did not know how to take a dictation, I only knew what I could do through writing and hearing them. Neither Kim nor I had ever taken a dictation. We could write down the Word as we heard it or in Kim’s case as he became one with it. But how do you take the Masters word through you while you are speaking?

We knew about the Holy Spirit, and the power of the Spirit. We had read the story of Benny Hinn and his amazing experience of working with the Holy Spirit. I knew how to work with the Holy Spirit, I had been doing that for years with my healing practice. But this was a bit unnerving and I tried the first time without success. I didn’t open my mouth, waiting for the Holy Spirit to do it through me!

The next morning I awoke with the prompting to take the Word from the Elohim Cyclopea and since I was alone, I opened my mouth and began to speak. And I heard his words and repeated them just a few words ahead of his next words that were coming, completing the dictation this way. Thus started the course of one month of daily dictations of the Word from many masters and cosmic Beings. And then they stopped. I had finished the mission. The Word of the ascended hosts were once again released into the physical to separate out those who were willing to follow the Word wherever it was released, be it through an ant, as El Morya was often fond of saying.

It was a few months later that Kim took his first dictation and I gradually took less and less dictations for public release. I continued to work privately with people counseling and helping them with their psychologies, and I did much of the logistic work of working to start an organization. Kim meanwhile was coming into the forefront more and more and took his first public dictation at our first conference.

Lecturing and Public Speaking
I remember the first time I had to get up and give a public speech in college in front of fifty students. I about fainted on the spot. I was shaking from head to toe, but because I was enthused about my subject, I got into it and finally recovered. Something prompted me from within that I must learn how to give speeches in public. And so I took a course in public speaking. I was determined to get over this fear. Kim was a natural at it, just like I saw him practicing his speaking in our early years of marriage. He was a natural at writing as well. And from the first, the Christ was always able to speak and write through him.

I remember sitting in the court mediation table with Kim and I against my former husband and attorney and the judge. I was trying to get custody of my children to move to Montana with me. I had lost my attorney and went to court without one. Kim and I had only been married a month when we had to fly to Florida to the hearing. And Kim got an opportunity to speak out in my behalf on why I should have custody of the children—there was no one else to do it.

I don’t remember what he said, but the room changed after he spoke. The Holy Spirit spoke through him and everyone sat in silence, speechless after he was done. I know everyone felt it even if they did not know what happened. We had to wait two weeks for the judge's determination on the case. And we won custody of the children, by God’s grace. But I witnessed the power of the Holy Spirit through Kim that day for the first time.

So I began writing for the website as I was divinely directed to do. I only wrote when I was prompted to do so, and to share a life experience I had that would help another person. Each time I would post an article I would always have someone who wrote to me right afterward, thanking me that what I wrote was exactly the answer to their prayers. It never failed. So I learned to trust that even if I thought the subject I was writing on really had no purpose, it always did at a higher level beyond my outer awareness.

Even at this busy time of preparing to leave for Europe, I have been directed to sit down twice and write for the website when I have not written for months. Yet these victory articles needed to be written now because the cycle is now and the people who need to hear this is needed right now. So I have taken time out of my busy schedule to do what I am directed to do.

So one day after I had finished the cycle of receiving dictations for the public and between my counseling work and the logistics of running an organization and the few articles I wrote, I felt like I should be doing something more. Something inside me was prompting me to do something I had never done before—and it was to write a book.

Kim suggested I might write a book about my life’s experiences. As the seed was planted, I decided one day that maybe this would be something I could give the world. So I sat down one today and began. What unfolded was my book, The Way: Know that I AM You. Each chapter I could feel the presence of the cosmic Beings as they guided me on what to say. After completing chapters from the Elohim and some from the Masters and some from me, I felt like there were three books being written! I could not see how these chapters had any connection, and the order in which they were given was random and all over the place. But eventually I pulled it all together in one book when I discovered the commonality in "the way."

I did not choose to write what I wrote, but it was given to me what I was to write. I did share a few stories of my experiences in life, but not many. As with my articles for the website, I had wonderful testimonies come back to me from people who read the published material. And with the book, they often would buy copies for their relatives or pass it on to some friend to read. It seemed that for some people it struck a cord of healing within them and gave them what they needed on the path.

I was actually embarrassed by my work – and most everything I wrote – because I was so unskilled in the art of writing. And yet I was pushed to do what I had to even without the skills so necessary to be a writer. The only saving grace was that the Holy Spirit would reach the reader with the Flame of Victory in whatever subject I was talking about. So time and again, people would be moved by what I wrote, not for the skill and presentation, but for the context which carried the light and vibration of victory. And that was because I dared to be more than what I thought I could ever be or do. And I opened the door so that God could use me. It simply takes the decision to be more and you can.

Publishing The Unseen Power In I AM
But years later I felt like we had risen to a higher understanding of the path and Being and I needed to update The Way and share a higher understanding. I kept praying about this and not receiving an answer. What did God want me to do?

Then one day – shortly before my birthday which always propelled me into new cycles – I received the prompting to write another book yet again. So I set aside the project of updating The Way and started a new book, The Unseen Power in I AM. What unfolded was a nightmare and one of the supreme tests of my life on the spiritual level. I no sooner started the book then I fell ill. And I was ill like I had never been ill except when I had pneumonia as a child. Nothing I did would cure this illness—and I know how to get well and stay well. But I received nothing from heaven in support through my inner communication—it seemed. They did not answer my prayers and I heard nothing from Above for two or three weeks. I had to go through this experience alone.

I could not understand why I was prompted to start writing the book and started the first chapters and then to fall ill on the fourth day. No one around me had been ill and no one around me got sick from my coughing. It was not of this world, this illness, although it had physical symptoms that were some of the toughest I have been through in many years. As I never had an illness that latest so long and with no abating of the symptoms.

My story of this experience is in my book in great detail so I won’t repeat it here. But what I don’t say in the book, but the masters and Elohim do in the closing dictations, is that the book carries the Flame of Victory throughout it. Not so much in what I say, but in what I had to go through to get the chapters completed. I fought tooth and nail to get the Word from Above into the physical and the opposition was great.

Many a day I told heaven I could not continue. I was throwing in the towel. This was impossible. And I would receive back silence. And then sheepishly, I would apologize and return to writing, very weary but willing to try yet once again to get their Word down in the chapters that unfolded. And when I would meet one challenge and feel like that force had been overcome, I quickly discovered another force. And then again the victory and then again another force. And finally I discovered the enemy within me. I realized I had to be invulnerable to every force no matter where and how it came at me—especially the anti-being force within me that saw itself having any separation from God. I had to take command from my higher Being so that my lower being would not believe and accept that it could be vulnerable to anything outside of God.

But I did not reach this breakthrough in my being until a few days before the book went off to the printers. One of the greatest difficulties in the book was an Appendix on diseases that Mother Mary wanted included in the book. Trying as hard as I could, I could not get the truth recorded for those diseases. I had the main part of the book completed in three weeks. But I could not get completed chapter eleven, nor the disease appendix. Months went by and I did not know why I was not able to complete the book.  I did know that cycles were not ready for the book and it was meant to be written in a certain timeframe but not released until another timeframe. And there were certain things that must unfold first.

Time and again I would rewrite chapter eleven and rewrite the disease appendix. I must have rewritten the hundred or so diseases several times. Each time I would work on bringing in the true causes of those diseases I would meet the opposition and spend at least the first hour breaking through the opposition before I would get but a few right answers.  When I would finally get a breakthrough, I would have to stop to cook dinner or take care of something else that had to be done. When I would return to the disease charts I would have to start all over again from square one and try and break through the opposition.

So consequently one day might yield only a few diseases done that would take at least one hour each to get correct. And then to return and double check them would take another hour or more each.  I eventually had to eliminate many diseases to get the chart down from 150 to about 100 because I felt like I could never get the book done if I tried to do them all.

And yet again, even writing this article I met up with the opposition when the computer program crashed wiping out a few pages I had written that were not saved. Since I cannot remember ever having my Word program crash, I know once again this is the opposition to my even sharing my breakthrough to a victory. My realization was that if I stepped out of my sense of victory and vulnerability, there would be the force to oppose me quicker than a blink of an eye. The goal is to stay in God Victory every moment of every day—awake or asleep.

Announcement of our New Mission - Love Is

After our Easter retreat I knew what had to happen before this latest book could be printed. And so I added to the book the announcement of a new beginning and movement that came about according to God's will for the purpose of the upliftment of women on this planet. We have been moving along to this unfoldment for a very long time. Shangra-la, the Guardians of the Mother Light and Mother Mary's website have only been the current work that has been ongoing for decades. But we are happy to announce that another step has been taken to restore the Mother Light with our new website and mission, Love Is. We have only just started the mission, but we look forward to adding to the website on a regular basis and to receive many contributions from women as this unfolds.

And so the new book, “The Unseen Power In I AM” was completed with the new website address in it and it has just arrived. We have sold out of the first shipment although we have only told a few people. Since we are leaving for Europe and the Ireland retreat, it will be a few weeks before the next shipment arrives and we can send out more orders. But I am happy to announce the victory of this book being brought into the physical against great opposition.

As I contemplated what this book had in it and the duplication of much of the material from The Way, I took The Way off the market, thinking it would be obsolete with the new material. But it is yet being translated into another language as I write this. I asked were they sure they wanted to translate this book since I had written this new book and the response back was that yes, they would like to continue. They felt the book was a perfect balance of the introduction to new concepts and teachings and the personal stories that new people to the path could relate to. They also loved the teachings on the blocks to love that are in them and the ability to introduce the new concepts without scaring people off who are stuck in orthodox thinking.

So I have decided to still upgrade the The Way and have it back on the market when we return from Europe.

I am grateful to be of service to the Great White Brotherhood and to be of service to the Godly people on earth. My recommendation to the people of God is not to give up when you think you have reached your limit. There is always just a little more you can give. And if you can give just that little more, you might find that you were just at the top of the mountain a few feet away when you gave up. And if you had of kept on going you would have reached the summit and the view, which would have been a great joy, a spectacular view and a glorious feeling.

We are in the cycle of victory. It is your choice to move with this flowing river and jump into the River of Life of Victory. But it can only be done through love. So we are learning about love in all of its aspects. It is not to late to join our next retreat in July and partake in the moving River of Life of victory in love and feel and experience it for yourself.

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