A Glimpse into Heaven

Where the I AM THAT I AM Burns as an Eternal Fire

by Lorraine Michaels

July 24, 2005

During our July Fourth conference, we were given a wonderful gift - a glimpse into Heaven. The Great Divine Director led us to share together an Alpha therapy session with a nineteen-year-old volunteer conferee, we'll call Anne—to keep her anonymity. Anne has a wonderful ability to articulate and express herself with words. She also is an artist, and sees details very well. She was the perfect subject for the session, and the Great Divine Director asked her if she would volunteer to be the vehicle, that all may have a glimpse into the Heaven world and what God's abode, outside the physical realm is really like.

Anne has had four sessions with me to date. We were asked to do our first session together two years ago. Each session we have been asked through the Spirit to do it, neither of us knowing what would happen, but we knew that the Holy Spirit was in charge and we would be led by the Spirit. I will share our most recent session into an etheric city in a future writing.

What is Alpha therapy?
A number of years ago I was directed through the Spirit to take hypnotherapy training. I first rebelled against the inner direction, because the Masters have mentioned in prior dispensations that hypnosis is not to be practiced by those of the Light. I equated hypnotherapy with hypnosis, which is really a form of control, and a means to open yourself up to mind control and make yourself vulnerable to dark spirits.

So I was not comfortable with the idea until I researched the subject and discovered that it was not hypnosis, but a light form of healing meditation, which takes you into the Alpha brainwave state of consciousness. The induction is a simple relaxing technique that only takes five minutes. When I have been the one being relaxed, it feels to me to be just that, someone who is very relaxed. My mind is in full control, and I can ignore a direction, stop the session at any time and even lie or withhold answers to questions, which I did in several sessions in order to protect my inner experience. After finishing my first session as the one who had the healing session, I exclaimed to myself, "Why I wasn't even under, I was in control the whole time!" And that is the way you feel.

But what happens is the body itself relaxes, and the conscious mind retreats back a bit, and the subconscious and superconscious mind comes forward. You are able to see or feel your past with a clearer perception. You are able to see, feel or discern your God Self which is the level of the superconscious mind and communicate and hear your Higher Self. Your subconscious mind is at the level of the soul and you can clearly feel and communicate with your soul. You may also easily feel the oneness with other evolving souls at the subconscious and superconscious levels. Thus you may easily communicate and hear Cosmic Beings along with your God Self who is I AM.

When I finished my training and later was directed to have one more session with another therapist, I came away a different person. I was no longer just Lorraine, or Lorraine with an unidentified ego or without a clear realization of the God within in, I was awakened. I was whole, my soul was complete. I knew my I AM Presence like I had never known him before. He was no longer this circle of light on a chart on the wall in front of me, but he was real and he was me.The progress on my personal path of Christhood accelerated from this point, and within one year I was asked by the Brotherhood to do the work I am doing today.

This therapy is a gift from God, and I know Anne will speak the same. What she experienced in her journeys within can be compared to the highest experiences told by the time honored Saints in their memoirs and legacies left for us to understand God, as they did in their visions.

Anne starts her session
During the July Fourth Retreat, we set aside one afternoon to see what the Masters had to show us. So thirty people gathered around Anne, to listen to her travels through the Cosmic highways. As many near-death survivors have described their heavenly experiences, Anne provided us with a detailed, colorful description of her travels.

We invoked the Light for protection before we began, asking for God's will to be done, and turned over the session to the Ascended Hosts. I led Anne into a garden where she immediately began her inner journey upon a pathway. There is much symbology in these heavenly trips and they enrich our understanding while yet in embodiment.

Anne found the garden had lots of green and it seemed to more intense green which she commented several times. The first symbol was a pathway leading to the left, which was large and easily seen. Hidden to the right was a much smaller pathway which meanders and cannot be seen very far down it. She was hesitate as to where to go when I suggested to her that she might look ahead for perhaps a guide, her I AM Presence or an Ascended Master. At this right hand branch, she sees this androgynous heavenly Being she recognized as a guide, who is filled with white light and is very welcoming. The Being smiles and takes her hand to encourage her down the smaller pathway. She described the Being as wearing a sort of cloth that covered from head to toe. The covering was white, and she described the whole as illumined, one color, yet like the light. The covering formed a hood over the head and when the Being turned to beckon her to catch up, she saw a beautiful, delicate face looking back at her.

When traveling in etheric realms during these sessions, Anne tends to take her time, meandering, taking in the sights and sounds and looking at every detail, and sometimes she is encouraged by her Cosmic guide or Ascended Master to move forward. Although there is no time in this Heaven world, the constraints of time are on us in the physical, and the guides know this.

As she traveled with this etheric companion, the world around her became alive with color. This path they were on was the more difficult to travel, and it was as though this pathway had a veil that hid it, but that lifted as you traveled down it. To the sides of the path she describes there were birds, trees, and a stream. The path seems to goes up and down small hills and the terrain became rougher.

In the distance she began to feel the presence of love in the air. She describes sensing angels up ahead and the air filled with an indescribable music, she says, "I feel like there is a music or a sound in the air. It is not describable. It is strophic. It is like air, but it is music. You can tell that it is a part of everything, it enfolds everything, but the air is everywhere."

As I write these words, my entire being fills up with this indescribable joy, it is not anywhere, but yet it is everywhere. This is Divine Love. It is as if nothing can penetrate or take you from this Love and Joy. And this place was that Love. Everything around her begins to take on more color and more life. She describes a great deal of white everywhere, and a feeling of more crystallized light. And as she travels ahead, the vibration changes so much you can hardly feel what you just left a moment ago, as she exclaims that you don't have the need to turn around because that experience you had is behind you, you can only experience the now.

Before her lies what looks like an ocean or vast meadow, it goes as far as the eye can see. Anne's guide walks ahead of her and Anne distinctly knows to follow him. The androgynous guide of light starts heading downward. As they travel down, what seemed to be a vast meadow became the rooftop to a secret, hidden world that she was now beginning to see. The further she went into this world, she could see that the rooftop was actually the treetops to this hidden world. As more was revealed to her she could see the secret world come alive with elemental life. They are so much a part of the landscape, you can't see them for the vibrant color around them. She soon realizes that this place is not easily seen and was hidden until her guide led her down to their world. She can make out sylphs in the trees above her and to her left, hovering over the ground, and emitting light like little balls of fire. Ahead of her a large archway made up of immensely tall trees that are very, very large and they form the inner body of a great cathedral.

They pause a moment as Anne takes in the teeming elemental life, as these beings, like slight little fairies of light, are going everywhere through the air welcoming her presence. She feels like they have done this before, welcoming the stranger upon this pathway. Although the road is traveled, she senses that it is not very well traveled, as if not many can take this pathway. As she felt the need to go forward, she turned away from the fairies to the path ahead and as she stood there she saw great angelic beings of light enter from the heights of the cathedral, as thou there were great windows. They came from both sides from amidst the trees. These great beings of light descended from the heights and began to form lines on the pathway to escort them forward.

Meeting the Master
As they continued to walk, she began to see the end of the cathedral as a gateway to yet another part of her path. She could begin to see that at the end of this great cathedral of trees, the pathway opened up in the formation of a "V," the bottom half of a great diamond. She also senses that the Light increases at the end of this opening. As she continued walking, angelic beings of light continued to descend lining the pathway on the left and the right, facing inward, like guards.


The pathway opens up as she came upon the great diamond shaped geometric courtyard, the escorts of Light in front of them moved to the right and to the left, each line now forming the continued line of guards at the edge of the diamond V.

There is a great amount of Light in this diamond area. So much that she cannot see further as there is a mist that obscures her vision, yet it is a clear mist and out of this mist and merging from it, is a tall, masculine Ascended Master. She senses he is a master and that she knows him, but does not want to say who. He emanates lightness of heart, joy of heart and he smiles and welcomes her directing her to accompany him. There was such a great amount of love, light and happiness flowing from the Master to her that it felt like it was enveloping her. The Master's smile was enormous and reflected on her face. He opened his arms very wide, welcoming her to come to him. And there was such a feeling of jubilance and mirth that she could hardly describe it in words. This feeling and this sensation, she has expressed, is unlike anything experienced in human form. The Master had a long robe on as well as something upon his head, although at the time, she did not express her focus on his appearance as greatly because the energy was so important and so sublime.Her guide leaves her side and she joins this Master as they walk together, forward into the Light.

Although Anne gets the sense that she can't see ahead, does not know where she is and where she is going, she feels this total sense of peace and trust in this Master. She senses that they are going to meet others.

The color of the Light around her begins to take on the color of blue and purple, and she begins to see water. As she continued forward the form of reflecting ponds emerged on the right and left of her, reflecting back the intense light. The sense is that this place is some kind of Spiritual Retreat. There is white stone beneath her feet which seemed to divide the water. Then they traveled forward and come to a perpendicular pathway. She could see beyond this point that there was also two more reflecting ponds. There is a very large fountain in the center and they seem to travel beneath it. As she looks up, there is a fountain where the water emerges and springs forth down four sides that create two arches each leading to one of the four reflecting ponds.

Now they travel upwards toward a building. Everything is very peaceful and beautiful, and everyone sits and meditates outside this building before they enter including Anne, as she is prompted to do. Anne is prompted that she and the Master have need to meditate together. Anne takes her place in a Buddhic meditative position beside the Master, though, Anne is prompted that he does not have the need to sit and meditate. It seems that he does so out of graciousness, but also for the purpose of forming a figure-eight flow and to consider the purpose of being there. When this is complete the Master rises, finishing his meditation, and enters the building. Anne continues meditating and takes in the feeling of light and understands that she may stay as long as she feels necessary.

While Anne was traveling with this Master, I kept receiving the word, "El Morya, and I knew this Master was him. If you could have seen Anne's face, a picture is worth a thousand words. I cannot describe the joy, and love and peace and happiness that beamed from her face as she looked upon this Being of El Morya. So I asked her is she felt it was El Morya, and she said to me, "How did you know?" We later understood that we were both being prompted that this was El Morya at the point where she met him, but neither one of us brought it up at that moment.

Finishing her meditation because this seemingly androgynous door keeper seems to beckon her to make haste, yet done in such an unobtrusive way, as all is in this place. As she rises from the meditation she feels extreme lightness, knowing she has a form that walks, but it has absolutely no weight to it, marveling at herself. Anne proceeds forward towards the door keeper. No words are ever spoken in this place, you just know what you need to know without words.

No love was expressed by this door keeper Being except in the form of honor and duty. When Anne attempted to communicate with this being she was given only an acknowledgement through the form of a nod of the head, which was infused with honor. The being then turned to the left and opened the great door for her to enter.

Before entering she observed that the building is surrounded by huge, wide stairs and the is majestic. The door is very immense and looks very heavy, but moves easily, weightless as she is. She enters and looks upon a great room, but not sensing where to go or that anyone is with her. She sees stairs to the right and left that meet in the middle to a balcony above, but finds that she does not need to travel the stairs. She is taken up in a cosmic elevator of Light, that is in the center of the room and spirals upward, taking her cosmically to the balcony.

The Pathway of Surrender
Entering this upper level, she sees a very, very deep hallway, where she describes that there is so much light that it hangs like walls, but not walls. There are what appears to be sheets of light that hang, almost like draperies, forming the walls. There is a long hall that seems to go on forever and there were pairs of pillars, one on the left and one on the right continuing down the hallway. The depth is an illusion, but not. You perceive it as long, but yet know that it is not far to the end where there is this room of great light. She can sense that there is a greater amount of light that is in the center of that room.

The hallway is very symbolic and a very fascinating part of this study in to the Heaven world. As she traveled down this hallway, each pair of pillars marks a place where you may surrender something of yourself. Each pair of pillars act as an initiation one must pass through in order to move ahead. Anne could feel a barrier that formed from one pillar on the left to the pillar on the right. It seemed like an impenetrable barrier of white light that would be parted like a veil once the initiation was passed. When it was time to come to each step forward, as has been described, it is necessary to take off a garment of human creation in a form of surrender.

You may leave on these pillars that which you were, that which you had become, that which you had experienced. You cannot move forward until you leave something behind. She describes it as, "I am just getting the feeling that the outer garments–like a visualization–is what you are wearing. You have to leave something behind, it is like some already have but if you haven't this is the last time you can because you have to do this in order to go forward. And as you are leaving them you are also gaining."

I probed her to describe more of this experience and I will let her own words describe it:

"The feeling that I get that this is much more than a one-time experience, this is like lifetimes in this one little walk. And it is much greater and harder on the outer form [in physical embodiment] than this is, but it is almost like you are going through it symbolically right now, each one who passes through this area. And then putting the other garments on. It is almost like this is the preparation area and you are taking off your old self, old parts of you and you strip down to the very last garment on your being and [what you have left] is all light."

Upon questioning her again, she said that all that is left is your Self, your light body, your purified self.

It is then that you are finally able to move forward to put on a symbolic outer garment. And then the garments that you put are your mantles, your passed initiations, your divine self, your Causal body. In describing herself at this point, she said it almost indescribable, it looks like a gown that you are wearing because you are a Light Being, but you are just Light. She said each Being is different and each Being is you, but the purest you, without any human self.

She describes that it is most difficult to let go of these experiences, that which you have accumulated, both human and inhuman, both good and bad, all the tests. But that everything she took off and left behind was the dredge, that which was needing to be surrendered.

She says, "But the good of the experiences, what you have become, what you have learned, what you know, what is within you, what is unique, all that is purified, adds to the pure form that I was. And that is how you are purified, you are without all of the old, but you are still there." So she is really saying that you are you, but more, without the dredge you have been carrying around.

The Great Room of I AM THAT I AM
Anne enters this room, which seems to be a Great Meeting Room. There are Twelve Beings in the room, six on each side that form a holy mandala as they gather at this time and place. She notices that she is the only one in the room that is like her, unascended. She is welcomed to sit in a vacated seat, which is on the left where El Morya is. Here is how she describes this room:

"It is gigantic. This room is almost circular and it is like a plume. The walls are like white fire. There is water in the center, like a spring. And this is where there are beings of light. There is something like a focus in the center and there is like the light of the I AM behind it, across from the doorway [where she entered.] It is like a big fiery focus but the light is all around it. It is like it is all made up the same Light."

We later understood that the violet flame had a part in this great room. Anne remembered that upon walking through the doorway she felt a difference between the previous marble-like floor and the more cloud-like floor in the Great Room. This cloud-like form had the essence of the violet flame vibration within it.

Yet as I asked for further understanding of this Light, the best way she described it was that at the center of this Light was an eternal flame emitting the force and the name I AM THAT I AM. This was an eternal flame of I AM, Ein Sof and within it Anne felt the I AM Presence but yet identifiable as separate. Each Being in the room was connected to this great I AM and because she had gone through the Great Hall, putting off the outer garments and was down to her pure form, she too, was one with this I AM as they were.

She also senses that there is work to be done in this room, but that her going before this grand meeting was not to do with a test, but yet something very important and serious and yet very welcoming. Other individuals go through this room, but not all, and sometimes in other places, like there are similar Great Rooms in other retreats and worlds. Anne had the sense that although she could not see them, there are other places in far distant worlds and universes as well as in our own that all have a similar room. The important part about these rooms is not the council, but the Great Light of the I AM THAT I AM, of God, in a room where Masters and Mandalas of Ascended Hosts congregate for a purpose, for a mission. This gave her the understanding that we are connected in a greater way to servants of the Light far beyond our universe and within it – to other Beings outside the Great White Brotherhood, to all of the Cosmic Hierarchy and beyond. We are all connected through God.†

At this point in her session, I was intuitively given the words "I AM THAT I AM," over and over again. I knew this place was an important place of understanding who we are. I also knew that Anne might not describe what we needed to hear, so I asked her many questions. She used the words, "there is more" several times. She said, "Yes, but at this point I feel like there is more. It is like when I went through the hallway, at the halfway point where everything you take off is behind, when you get to this point everything that you have taken off is behind, everything that you put on is before you, and at that center you are nothing but light. She explains that you are the highest of who you are at this moment, in this lifetime–which etheric includes the highest form of all you have become from past lifetimes as well as the highest form of your potential future; between now, and when your walk down that great hallway takes place.

What I was saying before I went forward, [in the hallway] you are at that point where you are everything that you have become and more. And then as you go forward you are putting on that more of what you've become its more of the outer garments, etheric garments, the etheric gown. They are part of you.

You already know that they are there and they are just a part of you. Your special tools. But you cannot put on these garments until you realize that they are yours. They are there within you, this is the outer precipitation of what is within you. An etheric experience of what you would imagine at the retreats at night or when you are at the end of one's life.

For now, it feels like there is more but this is as far as I can go right now."

I asked, you need to know there is more but you can't have it yet? And she said, "Yes and no. When I said there is more, there is more to everything, to all those beings in that room, to that council, to the I AM. And yes there is more too, more of a path for me because I don't feel like, I feel like this seat was vacated or was vacant when I sat for awhile, there is more. It is like I am able to work and serve and each individual is when they reach that point, but there are more points to reach."

Before she left this Great Room of I AM, the AUM* was sounded emanating from the Light of the I AM THAT I AM, from God. As not only a form of farewell and victory but also as a gift and means to transport her to her next destination. As the Great Light emitted this sacred sound, so too did all join in. Anne felt that she did not want to leave but knew that there was more work to be done on earth and in heaven and that she would do it. For the Love of God. For the Love of More.

I asked her what her I AM connection was to this I AM THAT I AM. She said,

"This Presence that I see I can't see it except through feeling it. I can't really see it with my eyes because it is too much to behold. But I can see it through the feeling. I can feel the light. I can feel the immense amount of light in one place in this room. It is the I AM THAT I AM more than the I AM Presence. They are the same but the I AM Presence is in the I AM THAT I AM.

I feel like the I AM THAT I AM sustains the I AM Presence, both are self-sustaining and that is why the I AM Presence is self-sustaining because it is the I AM THAT I AM. But it is within it. It's like more of a part of the I AM THAT I AM then the other way around. In feeling of size, it is smaller, it is not as immense.

The I AM THAT I AM is everything but the I AM Presence is more specific. It is impersonal and personal. It is like it doesn't have any specific feeling or trait or anything but it is still all-enveloping and still a Being. It is like a sun, but it is white, it radiates."

I am very grateful for Anne's vision and immensely descriptive portrayal of God I AM and the heavenly worlds. My understanding of this experience was for our conceptual view of ourselves and our oneness with God I AM THAT I AM, through our I AM. We have a view of the connectedness of the elemental kingdom, the angelic hosts and Ascended Masters as all comprising the body of God in the Spirit of the Great White Brotherhood. Hopefully Anne will paint us a picture one day, maybe many pictures of these etheric cities and retreats.

What I AM THAT I AM wanted us to have an understanding was that at the highest level we can perceive of God while in mortal form; that each one of us is connected to I AM.

This is the level that we are asked to focus our attention on to bring in the Golden Age. We can no longer stay at the level of thinking we are or aren't the Christ yet, or we are or we aren't the I AM Being as our I AM Presence. We need to just rise to the level of being that I AM that I AM, one, through our God I AM that we are in form, joining our Beings with the I AM THAT I AM Above.

Anne was left with these words before she existed the Great Room in a spiral of Light, which was the means of transportation to the lower realms in time and space. Upon preparing to leave, Anne inquired to the Master, upon my prompting, did we need to know anything more before Anne left this Great Room. Morya bent his head towards her and said, "To Be is to Be More."

Gratitude
My gratitude to the Great Divine Director of our lives, to El Morya and the entire Spirit of the Great White Brotherhood for giving me the honor of being a part of these sessions. Thank you for the training under the direction of the Maha Chohan to garner the gifts of the Holy Spirit that made these sessions possible, for without the Holy Spirit, these experiences could not be.

†We also express our deep gratitude to Mother Mary and Jesus for holding the immaculate concept for us to realize this further understanding. Weeks following her session, Anne was now able to articulate more concerning other worlds unlike ours yet of Ein Sof. Without the sacrifice of Jesus in blazing the way for us to be the Christ, we would not have had this opportunity to behold the heavenly realms. Because he was, I AM.

Epilogue

A funny thing happened weeks after the event and the transcribing of this article. Anne had prayed to the Great Divine Director, Mother Mary, El Morya, Jesus and other Masters to overshadow all work concerning her visions, including transcriptions and writings. When we got together, we were immediately directed to work on a variety of subjects seemingly completely off subject to our intended review of this article. The Brotherhood obviously had more in store for us to do, which led us to realize and understand deeper mysteries of this vision. What started out as a one or two hour project, turned into a nine hour project.

As Anne and I were studying the transcriptions El Morya adeptly led us to a certain page in a book. Anne was flipping through this book when a picture of a retreat caught her eye. She exclaimed, "My that looks familiar. This picture is an example of how I'd like to demonstrate my visions of Heaven." Lo and behold we both noticed that she had flipped to a section from El Morya on "The Temple of Good Will," the Retreat of El Morya at Darjeeling from within the book, "The Masters and Their Retreats."**

Neither one of us thinking very much of it, she continued to flip the pages before I recalled her back to those pages under the direction of El Morya. Reading those pages and about the Darjeeling Council it dawned upon us both that this same council in her vision was very similar to this Darjeeling Council description she was reading. Upon asking the Master, he confirmed our discovery which he had led us to.

We felt a bit sheepish, to use one of the Master's favorite terms, that we had missed this obvious connection. Things became clearer to us at that point, and a whole new understanding opened up to us on the purposes of especially these last two Alpha therapy sessions, as well as one of Anne's first visions of the Retreat of the Maltese Cross when she was approximately thirteen.

From the very beginning of our work together, it has been made known to both of us that the Masters Great Divine Director and El Morya have been working with Anne. Like most of us on the path of Life, she has been battling her inner enemy, the ego. Anne had been shown many victorious concepts of the reality of who she really was outside of her human creation during these sessions. Each session was like a different facet of seeing herself and the relationship of herself in the fabric of Life and the purpose of Being. Each one brought her a separate, important victory in her conscious awareness of herself as God and a gift on how to separate herself out from her ego and its unreality. Each session brought an aspect of victory in the understanding that everything is God and that the fabric of life is Light and Love. And within this Light and Love God expresses himself in myriad forms through unique conscious beings, all loved and honored in their uniqueness. It mattered not whether one was an elemental being, angel, Master or unascended evolving son or daughter of God, all were given honor and love and all returned that honor to each other.

Anne realized that she has a new found love of herself that she never had. And she can go forward in life now with more respect and honor for herself, and forgiveness for her mistakes in the past, but also those she might make in the future. Our hope is that all may have their own inner experience to awaken to the unreality of their own human ego creation and to the reality of their Real Self, who is honorable and is love and a unique expression of God's Being. God in you is a pure being of Light and God in you is Love. You just need to let him Be.

*The sacred word AUM releases the frequency of the Word, which is the same Word that went forth to create the universe. When we affirm the word AUM, we affirm our true being and we become that true being. And when we become that true being we know it as I AM. The A is representative of our Father Alpha, as the creator, the Beginning, the origin of Being. The M is the OM of our Mother Omega, as the Ending, one with the Holy Spirit and the spirals of integration and disintegration in form. The U in the center is the creation, the Son, held between the Father-Mother God. You, is the Real Self, the Unity of the One and the Word. You are the identity of their Love, the Christed One, through the Father-Mother polarity of the love of the Father in the Power thrust and the return of the love of the Mother in sustaining of Life. Through these positive and negative polarities, Being is throughout the span of Cosmos.

**Mark and Elizabeth Clare Prophet, "The Masters and Their Retreats" Summit University Press, Corwin Springs, Montana.

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