Formation of the True Community of the Holy Spirit

How to bring about a physical breakthrough for the community

By Kim Michaels
September 2003

After our trip to Montana, I wrote about the potential for a breakthrough in the formation of the true community of the Holy Spirit. I clearly felt that the Masters are looking with great anticipation towards the formation of the true community in the physical octave.

What I didn’t say in my first article is that our trip also made it clear to me that this community can come about only if people move into the state of being and dare to express their Christhood, independent of approval or rejection from anything outside themselves. I experienced that many people are very close to being at that point.

However, visiting the community in Montana (after several years of absence) made me realize that although many people are close, most have a final block (or several) that prevents them from being who they are. I know these people will have to overcome such blocks, as Lorraine and I have had to do over the past year. We have literally been stripped of our garments in the form of opinions and expectations concerning who we are, what our missions are, what God’s will is etc. In that process we have had to let go of all of our expectations, preconceived opinions and attachments.

It is quite clear to me that if the true community is to happen, a critical mass of people must go through that same process (as some have already done). It is also clear that some people have certain attachments that are standing in the way of this. So this article might be considered the Omega thrust to my first article, which described the vision and the potential. This one will talk about how to bring about a physical breakthrough for the community.

Saint Germain’s call to Christhood
Allow me to give you a bit of background. At the summer conference in 1996, Saint Germain gave a dictation in which he stated that he needed us to manifest Christhood by 1999. Those words hit me right between the eyes. After the dictation, I sat down under a tree in the Heart and meditated on his words. I had an intuitive flash, which made it crystal-clear to me that if I continued to do what I was doing at the time, I wouldn’t fulfill Saint Germain’s requirement.

Now, at the time I fulfilled all of the requirements for active communicants. I lived near the Inner Retreat and attended four conferences a year. I went to 2-3 services a week and decreed for several hours a day (I actually had a job [thanks John!] where I could decree while I was working, and I gave the Kuan Yin rosary, the Shiva Bhajan tape and decrees every day). I was on the teaching center board in North Glastonbury and was active leading decrees and services etc.

I really thought I was doing okay as a chela, but now I got this undeniable realization that continuing on my present course would not enable me to manifest Christhood in three years. So it became clear to me that I needed to take a different approach. During my SU level II in 1994 (Jesus and Mighty Victory) I had realized that the path to Christhood is an inner path. Christhood means union with your Christ self, and it cannot be attained through anything or anyone outside yourself. So I realized I needed to focus more on the inner aspects of the path.

We moved out of Montana in 1997, and I no longer had the opportunity to spend so much time on outer church activities. I realized that although these activities were fulfilling and important, I had come to a point where they distracted me from going within. After I moved, I got the prompting to study the I AM books. I remembered that Saint Germain once said in a dictation that they contained teachings on the I AM Presence that were not found anywhere else. I read from one of the books every night, and I gradually started realizing that I do have an I AM Presence, and that I can make contact with it. This eventually led me to the point of realizing that Jesus is my Master, creating the askrealjesus website and writing the books. In other words, doing what I am doing now is a natural continuation of the process of going within.

When I visited Montana, I met several old friends who had gone through a very similar process of slowing down the outer church activities and focusing on the inner path. In fact, some of them had also received inner direction to study the I AM books. However, I also met a number of people who had taken a different route, and this finally brings me to the topic of this article.

In search of a guru
I attended the summer conference in 1999. Mother wasn’t there, but there was no absence of gurus. Some staff members had invited a Tibetan master and his monks, and there was talk about him possibly becoming the church’s new spiritual leader. Dannion Brinkley was also there, and there was talk about him being involved with church leadership (I think he would have made a more colorful president than the ones we have had).

As I contemplated this, I realized that church leadership was in search of a guru. I found this odd, because if people had followed Saint Germain’s call and embodied the teachings, we should have had enough chelas with a high degree of Christhood so that we didn’t need an outer guru. Anyway, I didn’t think more about this until I visited Montana this summer. I now realized that although church leadership has abandoned the search for a guru (who needs a guru when you have rules?), many church members had not abandoned this search.

On the contrary, I met many people who had not only sought an outer guru, but who had found one. In fact, I heard about an interesting plethora of such gurus. Here are a few examples:

• An old friend of mine had turned against Mother and had become a guru for several other people, leading them into a spiral of anger and hatred towards Mother and the church. I am sure there are other such gurus.
• Some healers, astrologers and counselors now claimed to be working with the Masters. Some of them were giving people personal messages, past life readings etcetera.
• Some people with no healing background were giving other people various types of messages and readings from the Masters.
• Some people had turned the church into their guru, focusing on following all of the outer rules, doing all of the decrees and services and accepting everything coming from church leadership.
  
  

What’s wrong with that?
You might say that since I claim to be working with the Masters myself, I shouldn’t find fault with other people doing the same thing. Let me make it very clear that I am not making any generalized statements!

I firmly believe that as people attain Christhood, they will gradually develop various faculties that will allow them to serve as healers, counselors or even (forgive me for using a taboo word) messengers. I am very open to the idea of many people working with the Masters in various capacities. I hope that some of us will one day be able to work together, helping those who have not yet (yet being the operative word) attained personal contact with the Masters.

However, I also realize, as Mother has stated, that the fact that someone has an ability to hear or see does not necessarily mean that the person has spiritual attainment, i. e. Christhood. Not having attainment doesn’t necessarily disqualify a person from serving in some capacity, such as a healer, but you might not want him as your guru. However, even if a person does have high attainment, one most likely shouldn’t make such a person one’s guru.

I believe one should never allow oneself to become codependent upon an outer guru. One should not develop an emotional attachment to an outer guru or feel that one cannot make personal decisions without consulting the guru. If one does, one is turning such a person into a surrogate guru.

A surrogate is a substitute for the real thing. What is the real thing? It is the inner guru of your I AM Presence and Holy Christ self! I think this has been made clear by the teachings found on this website, both the ones from Jesus and the dictations on Being, given through Lorraine. Yet, please don’t take that as gospel. Simply search the dictations by Mark and Mother and I think you will find numerous quotes that support this statement.

My point is that even a true guru can be turned into a surrogate guru if a chela refuses to go within. As Jesus so clearly states in his dictation, a true teaching can become a false teaching if it prevents you from following the inner path. The reason being that only the inner path can lead to the inner union with your Christ self.

The surrogate guru test
How can you determine whether a person has turned someone into a surrogate guru? It is amazingly simple. Just ask the person to give up the guru. You might be surprised at the reactions. Here are just a few reactions that show an attachment to the outer guru:

• Some people react with fear because they feel like they couldn’t make it on the path without the guru.
• Some people have an emotional reaction and go into heated arguments for why they don’t need to give up the guru.
• Some people have some very rational, intellectual reasons for not giving up the guru.
• Some people get insulted and never want to talk to you again.
• Some people accuse you of being critical or negative towards their guru.
• Some people get angry and accuse you of being wrong, being jealous or in competition with their guru, having evil intentions or even being a false guru yourself.

In some cases people’s arguments might be correct. In some cases the person might be a true guru who is helping these people. However, the central point is that if a person is not willing to give up—or even consider giving up— the guru, it shows an attachment. That attachment can only be caused by one thing, namely that the person has not yet discovered or locked in to the inner guru! If you are working with your inner guru, you might still benefit from working with an outer guru. Yet you will not feel like you couldn’t live without that guru!

I recently met a person with a great vision for doing a specific task for the Masters. Yet the person was determined to do this in a certain way. When I suggested a different way, he became emotional. At that point I felt Jesus speaking through me, giving the person a teaching on attachment. The central message was the following statement:

If you are not at peace, there is something you have not surrendered!

It might seem like a simple statement, but I believe that if you fully understood and applied this statement, it would give you the fastest way to Christhood you will ever find.

The essence of Christhood is, as Jesus says, that you must be who you truly are regardless of who the world wants you to be. You must be true to your I AM presence regardless of what the forces of this world say. The only way to avoid being swayed by the forces of this world is to be completely non-attached to the things of this world. If you are attached, the prince of this world will have something in you and will use it to control you.

A pattern of codependence
I knew hardly anything about the situation in Montana before our trip. Yet after talking to people, I can see a certain pattern.

Most lightbearers have a problem with self-esteem. We have been pounded by the fallen ones over so many lifetimes that we feel like we have no right to be here. I worked on this by studying the teachings and going into therapy, but that didn’t do it for me. My real breakthrough came by going within and discovering/accepting my true worth as a son of God. True self-worth comes only through God in you, your I Am Presence.

I see many people who have not yet gone within. They continue to look for some kind of healing, validation, recognition or acceptance from outside themselves. When they come into the teachings, they look for it from the Masters or from Mother.

I noticed that the Masters and Mother rarely gave people such recognition, and many people are angry at Mother because of this. I suspect one reason for the lack of recognition is that some people became puffed up by pride or self-importance after being recognized. Another reason is that people ultimately need to get this from within. If it doesn't come from within, you won't really accept it, and you will have to be continually reaffirmed by an outer source.

I have heard from many people that some healers are now giving people this outer recognition and sense of importance by giving them personal sessions with the Masters. The Masters are supposedly giving people great encouragement, telling them how wonderful they are and how important their missions are.

For some people, this has helped them build their self-esteem. I am not saying this is necessarily wrong. Some souls might need this to overcome a problem with self-esteem. Yet at a certain point, the soul needs to go beyond the outer recognition/rejection and get its true self-worth from within. If the soul doesn’t, it becomes co-dependent upon the outer source.

At that point, a true guru will attempt to force the soul over this hump or even leave the soul behind so that the soul can be forced to go within. Mother, and the Masters through her, would often give people a spiritual spanking to shock them out of a certain state of consciousness. Although I have personally experienced the Masters' love, I have also experienced that they are very direct in telling me what I need to overcome. Jesus was not gentle in helping me get to the point of being able and willing to serve as his messenger, and the Masters still discipline both Lorraine and I when we take a wrong turn.

In contrast, a false guru will continue to feed the soul and thus foster co-dependence. Based on what I have heard, it seems to me that some healers are not seeking to make people independent. They encourage them to continue to come back. Some people told me that after dozens of sessions it began to seem as if the healer was making up stuff to talk about although the client no longer had any issues. To me this doesn’t sound healthy. It sounds like some healers became surrogate gurus that gave people the outer recognition they felt they never got from Mother. It also sounds like some people became more concerned about the income than the client's growth.

My question, therefore, is whether some people feel that their sense of self-worth is dependent upon an outer guru and the contact with the Masters through that person? Do they subconsciously fear that if they let go of the outer guru, they will loose their sense of self-worth? Is that why they reject any attempt to help them overcome their codependence upon the outer guru, such as Lorraine's article and several statement she was told to make while in Montana?

If so, I think it is high time to go within and find the true self-worth that your Christ self is waiting to give you. Mother has said that when a soul has idolatry, it must eventually tear down that idol so that it can move forward on the path. It has been my experience that these idols will inevitably be taken away from us. It is better to overcome them voluntarily than to resist it and therefore be plunged into doubt and despair when the idol eventually crumbles.

Healing or codependence
I met people who had gone to a particular healer for dozens of sessions and still couldn’t let go of that healer. I think it is wonderful that people will do whatever it takes to resolve their psychology. But I also think there comes a point where, if you haven’t been healed by a particular healer, it might be time to look for another one with a different approach. If you don’t want to abandon one healer, then maybe there is an attachment.

I also met some people who felt a great need to evangelize for a particular healer, sometimes pressuring others to go or to keep going. Sometimes people would be very aggressive and would be offended if others didn’t respond. To me that also shows attachment.

Others felt a great need to defend a particular healer against anything that sounded like criticism or even questioning. I understand that if a person has truly helped you, you are grateful to that person. Yet why become so attached that you won’t listen to other people’s opinion or advice?

The bottom line here is that to me a healer, astrologer or counselor should be seen as a professional providing a service. If you have a toothache, you go to the dentist, and he fixes the tooth. You might like your dentist, but you probably don’t develop an emotional attachment to him or feel that you can’t live without him.

To me, any healer should be seen the same way. Some people have a need for healing, and they go to a healer who assists them in healing themselves (all true healing is self-healing.) So why would people develop this emotional attachment to the healer? Isn’t the healer simply a professional who provides a service, and when the service is no longer needed, you let go of the person and move on?

In other words, is the person a healer or has he or she become more to you? Has the healer become your guru? Or has he or she become a surrogate for the personal contact with the guru or the Masters that you never felt you had from Mother? Is the healer a tool for your liberation and progress on the path, or have you become co-dependent upon the person, thinking that you cannot be healed or that you cannot contact the Masters without the guru? Does the healer have a hook in you that prevents you from letting go and being who you are?

One might even ask what the real need for healing is? Did some people need to go to an outer guru so that they could finally see through the need for an outer guru and decide to look for the inner guru? Have some people followed false gurus in past lives, and therefore they need to overcome this tendency once and for all—or jeopardize their ascensions? No outer guru, false or true, can guarantee your Christhood.

Why the attachment?
What is the psychological mechanism that causes people to develop this attachment to an outer guru? To me it must be an inability or unwillingness to trust in oneself, or rather one’s Self.

Jesus has now given several teachings about the anti-guru and the anti-chelas. The lie of the anti-guru is that you cannot know God directly from within yourself. You need someone or something (a church) outside yourself to know and contact God. You need an outer authority to tell you what is true, what to believe and how to live your life. This then leads to the outer path where you trust some outer authority instead of your Christ self.

Of course this approach is reinforced by the anti-chelas who believe the lie and therefore follow the outer path. They don’t want anyone to follow the inner path, manifest Christhood and thereby prove them wrong. To avoid this exposure, which they in their fear/pride see as the ultimate calamity, they actively seek to prevent other chelas from following the inner path and becoming spiritually independent.

So why do people fall for this lie? In my opinion it is often the result of past-life trauma. All of us have been exposed to false gurus and archdeceivers. Jesus gave me an interesting insight into the modus operandi of an archdeceiver. First of all, an archdeceiver is far smarter than your average fallen angel. The archdeceiver is a master of disguise and knows how to appear so good that you cannot possibly think he is evil. Therefore he will often appear as a true guru with wisdom, love and attainment.

The first goal of the archdeceiver is to make you believe everything he says and thereby follow the outer path. However, even if you eventually see through the lies of the deceiver, all is not lost. The second goal is to destroy your faith in yourself and your ability to know truth. The mechanism is very subtle, yet persuasive.

Say you follow a false guru for a number of years. You gradually come to the realization that he is a false guru, yet to do so you must admit that you were fooled by the guru. The dark forces and your dweller will now start telling you that the fact that you were fooled proves that you don’t have discernment and therefore shouldn’t trust yourself.

When a soul has been hurt by false gurus over several lifetimes, the soul can react in several ways:

• It develops such a mistrust of itself, its Christ self or God that it won’t believe in anything. It becomes an atheist or skeptic.
• It mistrusts itself so that it feels a compulsive need to follow an outer guru, never daring to trust the inner guru.
• If the soul follows a false guru and begins to suspect this, the soul will be unwilling to admit that the guru is false. The soul will go to great length to defend the guru and deny all proof. The reason being that the soul cannot bear to admit that it has been fooled—again.

The reality is, however, that we have all been fooled by false gurus because their lies permeate every aspect of our culture. So the path is a process of coming to see the truth whereby we can expose the lie and leave it behind. The essence of this process is that we must be willing to admit that our current beliefs are incomplete or erroneous. This is the very essence of the path, and if we are not willing to admit the error, how can we embrace the truth that will set us free?

If we do not admit that a particular belief is a lie, we will get stuck at that point. We might even engage in an effort to defend that belief and therefore solidify our position or compound the error. We might even come up with some very sophisticated and slick arguments to defend the lie.

This is exactly what the anti-chelas are doing and that is why it is virtually impossible to make them see the error of their ways. They have literally become the unreachables and even the Masters cannot reach them. They are like the lawyers that would not enter the inner path and tried to prevent others from entering.

As Jesus said back then, “Woe unto you!” He has now announced the judgment of the anti-gurus and anti-chelas, and I think it is time for the rest of us to come apart from them and their culture that is based on a denial of the Christ within.

Is Mother coming back?
What is the best way out for the soul? The only real way out is that the soul makes contact with its Christ self and regains its faith in itself. The best way for this to happen is that the soul finds a true guru and gradually receives healing and guidance, enabling it to trust the inner guru. Yet because of the soul’s fears, there is always a risk that the soul can turn the true guru into a surrogate guru. After all, why run the risk of trusting my Christ self, why run the risk of making a mistake, why take the trouble to make my own decisions and take responsibility for my path when it is so much safer to follow the outer guru. How could you possibly go wrong by following a true guru?

Jesus has made it clear on this website that the real reason Mother was withdrawn so abruptly and with no explanation was that too many chelas had become codependent upon her as an outer guru. Therefore, the Masters decided to give people shock therapy in an attempt to create a vacuum that might force people to look for the inner guru.

Some people have taken this opportunity and found the inner path. Unfortunately, many others have not seen it as an opportunity. Instead, some have become disillusioned or negative while others have searched for and adopted a surrogate guru.

So why is this such a big deal? Well, for one thing the surrogate guru prevents people from manifesting Christhood, and only Christed beings can save the planet (and themselves). However there might be another reason.

As we were driving home from Montana, El Morya and Mother gave Lorraine and I several hints that Mother might actually become healed and come back to lead the church. Now, I must make it clear that Lorraine and I have sometimes received directions that (as we realized later) were not meant to be taken literally. Such directions are given to test us (and/or others).

While this might indeed be such a direction (how would we, self-declared messengers, handle the idea of Mother coming back?) there could be some reality to it. We recently received the direction that the deciding factor is the response of the chelas. Currently, too many of Mother’s chelas are too attached to the outer path and the outer guru. They still idolize her and refuse to follow the inner guru. As long as this continues, Mother will not be allowed to come back (or move on) because it would defeat the purpose of her mission and the reason she was withdrawn. So the key is that a critical mass of church members decide to follow the inner path and manifest Christhood.

One might consider that Mother is currently crucified by having a physical body that is not functioning yet still ties her to the material world. One might consider that it is up to us, her chelas, to take her down from that cross and that we can do so only by manifesting our Christhood. She cannot do this herself anymore than Jesus could take his body down from the cross.

Once again, let me say that our directions might be a test. Yet if enough people manifest Christhood, then it actually isn’t so important whether Mother comes back in the physical or ascends. She can always continue her mission through her chelas whom she can contact inside their hearts. The bottom line is that by following the inner path, you enter a win-win situation for yourself, Mother and the Masters.

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