Love is the Key to
Awakening to the Voice Within

by Lorraine Michaels

In this day and age, we are coming to the point of being able to walk and talk with the Masters, with God. How do we do this? How do we know that the 'spirit' is really the Master? Really God?

The reason some people will not accept the teachings of the Brotherhood released through Kim or myself and other messengers, is because they do not know how to discern the spirits. They come from fear. And fear is a natural response to protect your heart and soul, your body and your mind. Fear does not need to be the enemy, but the friend and protector used in conjunction with the ongoing manifestation and replacement of greater and greater love in your being.

So I would start with love. How do we manifest that greater love that will become that perfect love that casts out all fear? We start by healing. Healing occurs when we seek out the causes of our fears, and bring light and truth into the equation. So the calls to the Dhyani Buddhas, the violet flame, the illumination decrees, and the dweller decrees, are all the spiritual means to go after our fears.

Confronting our Fears

The physical means is through practicing fearlessness. We test the waters. We confront our fears, one by one. When I was pregnant with my first child, my ex husband and I were living and working on a Navy base in the Bahamas. I was ready to return stateside and raise a family. So early in the pregnancy, I quit my job and went stateside, while my ex husband finished up his cycle, and was to follow me later.

So I spent quite a bit of time alone, in a house belonging to my in-laws. There were a lot of windows, it was in the country where I had very few neighbors. I had my dog to keep me company, and help me feel secure, but nevertheless, the nights seemed the worst. One night, the large bureau mirror fell off the wall and crashed to the floor and woke me up. I was not allowed to bring my dog in, but that night, in he came to stay in my room with me.

One night I awoke to feeling a presence of someone standing next to my bed. Other times I heard noises from outside. This was the first time I had ever been living alone in a house. I soon learned that the best thing I could do was meet the fear. If I heard a noise, I would go outside and look. If I was wakened from mirrors crashing or astral visions, I would get up and take action. I would immediately not feel any fear anymore. We have heard the adage, that which you fear the most is the fear itself.

I might have had the quality inherent in me to begin with, as I remember a robber walking through my parents' yard one night when I was 14. He was checking the neighborhood for vacant homes to rob. My sister came in and told me someone was outside her window. My brother and I immediately ran outside to investigate. We saw a man and as soon as he saw us, he ran, I running after him (God only knows why!) and I chased him up to the highway where there were businesses and lights.

After five minutes of running, he stopped and turned around and pointed a gun at me. Well, I simply turned the other way and ran back home, thinking what a folly to chase someone with a gun! Of course, I didn't know he had a gun and in my naivité I ran in like a fool, where angels fear to tread. There is a balance of confronting your fear and acting wisely to confront it!

One other time I was traveling across country by bus to attend Summit University. I had saved just enough money for the tuition and a one way ticket out, and had only a couple of dollars left over. Our bus stopped in Louisiana where we had an hour layover. So I walked the streets, and stopped and bought a snack from the few dollars I had left. I put the change in my purse and walked out the door.

A man walked past me, on a crowded street, and snatched the visible corner of a five dollar bill out of my purse and quickly walked off. I turned on that man with the fire of a lion defending her cub, and demanded he give my money back. Everyone was looking at me, but not doing a thing. He fired back he didn't have my money, but I wouldn't leave him be, and in a few moments, he reached into his pocket and took the money and threw it to the ground and took off.

Again, I acted before thinking, in fact I reacted in defense of the only few dollars I had left, to demand back that which was mine. This man could very well have had a gun as well. I thought, what folly Lorraine, for five dollars! But it seems to come out of me at times, to confront with fearlessness that which would attack or take away my security.
Fear takes us away from our peace and security. So we can confront our fears physically, in a more balanced manner than what I describe, but nevertheless, there is some merit in action. It dissipates fear very quickly.

The Miracle of Love

And love works miracles. I recommend highly the book, Creating Miracles by Carolyn Miller, Ph.D. She wrote the book, inspired by stories she received from her students and colleagues, describing miracle after miracle from everyday people like you and me. Stories were told of potential rape victims, who felt a presence take over their being and bring them complete calm and fearlessness upon realizing that they were about to be raped. And in all cases but one, changed the consciousness of the rapists from performing their violent act because they loved, through compassion, their attacker and were at peace and would not allow negative thoughts to enter their consciousness. The one rapist that was not stopped, always killed his victims, so he still was prevented from completing his crime and let her go.

Can most rapists actually rape a victim if the victim does not fear them? Consider that the rapist, or demons through the individual, thrives off of the light released in fear. If the victim does not engage in the fear, but sends love and acceptance to the rapist, the rapist cannot engage in the normal process because he is not controlled by the forces that normally take command. He is at loss as to how to react to unconditional love.

Other incidences were described, with car accidents, some almost going off cliffs or people missing an accident by a hair's breath, where the same peaceful calm state overcame them, thus allowing a higher presence to take over the vehicle or to bring the vehicle to safety.

This book came into my hands as if by a miracle itself, along with many other inspiring stories on love and the capability of normal individuals to love another during the most trying circumstances, in which others would have been driven by fear. I did not take this coincidence lightly. I felt God was trying to tell me something that I needed to learn, namely that perfect love casts out all fear. Sometime around this period, I awoke one morning with these words blazing across my mind, as if the words were written in fire: Love those who would harm you and persecute you. I knew that love was the key and I needed to internalize what truly unconditional love was.

This is far more powerful than we realize. And the adage, "love thy enemy" begins to take on a new meaning. Loving an enemy does not mean acceptance of the act of rape or robbery, it means changing one's consciousness that fear is not the commanding force for either individual. These people do not know what came over them. They were graced by the angel of peace, their Christ Self descending fully into their form to take command. It was in the act of letting go, the surrender to their fate, that switched them from the self of fear, anger and ignorance, to the power of Being the Christ in action: fearless, loving, peaceful and determined and in control.

It was when their souls and minds saw the circumstances outplayed in front of their inner eye, the potential for the loss of life and the seemingly inability to change the course of events, that they let go and feared not the death or outcome. Where their ability came from to surrender, is the question. Can we all obtain this quality of peace and surrender at the moment we need it? Can we live that way every day of our lives?

Yes, that is the goal, to obtain that peace that passeth all understanding. It is gained through effort and will. To summon your will in determination that you will go after every thread of untruth, fear and hurt that is entwined in your being. And thread by thread pull out the fear and replace it with love. Never let your head hit the pillow each night where you have not reviewed what fears you have enacted that day that you have not faced and challenged with love and illumination.

Most of us are at a stage of development on the path of Christhood, where we have already let go of our need to selfishness, to engage in anger and to hurt another. It is the fear that is the biggest block left in our consciousness: the poison of non-will, non-being. The will not to be does not come out of our direct opposition to God in us, but out of the fear of our God self. The lack of trust and faith that where he takes us will not harm us.

But we see in these stories from Creating Miracles, which I hope you will read, that we need not fear our God self. He is ever there to help us. What we fear is the unknown, the letting go to something or someone that many of us cannot see or hear. How can we know this Self that loves us, that is us?

Meeting your Higher Self

I share with you an experience I read of a women in Manhattan. One night she was walking a stretch of street with gutted buildings and working class rentals, to reach her boyfriend's apartment. As she passed by an empty parking lot, three men jumped out at her and surrounded her. And as they stood facing each other, she felt the impulse to smile at them and defuse the situation. But she soon realized their eyes were vacant, as if there were no souls in these beings and her fearless banter and smiles would not affect them.

She did as many other's had done in the Creating Miracle stories, she fought off the idea of accepting the worst outcome—robbery, rape or death. And she would not let those thoughts play out in her mind. In a second, her arm was grabbed and twisted behind her, and her throat gripped. Yet she immediately felt compassion flow through her, for this individual, as she looked up at his scarred face next to hers. He demanded money in a rage of anger.

She was imprisoned by his grip and couldn't reach her money and felt in a helpless situation, not being able to move to give them her money at the same time they were demanding it or they wouldn't let her go. Her mind switched into a survival mode and she watched it as if she was outside of herself. As she was observing her mind, if was like a computer crashed and shut down, at the seeming inability of itself to handle the situation. Then she began to notice a light welling up in the back of her brain (most likely at the medulla oblongata - the seat of the Christ self). This light came to the foreground and filled her mind, and then filled up her body too.

As the energy force grew inside her, she felt the wholeness of herself and saw a white light shoot out from the top of her head, soaring thirty to forty feet above her and ten feet in front of her. There it merged with a greater light (her I AM Presence) that seemed to come down to meet it.
Now her vision expanding to see herself from above and behind, and she could see her muggers and her tortured body, as if she was everywhere in this light.

As she looked up at the light with her inner eyes, she felt the gaze upon her of all embracing love, at the same time she felt she was a part of that light. She felt fully supported by that light as if buoyant and pulled up by it. She felt the light probe her being as if searching for something inside of her, finding it and then pouring itself into that spot. Her consciousness then expanding into the awareness of being connected to all cosmos, as if the light had exposed the deepest corner of darkness in her being where she felt the sense of separation of God, her true Being.

She sank to her knees and heard a voice say within, she wouldn't be harmed and it would end in a few minutes. She trusted the voice and sensed the Divine Presence and compassion that light gave to her as it gazed down upon her. All the while her arm had been inching upward to reach into her front pocket to find the ten dollar bill she had, which she finally reached and threw it to the ground. The mugger instantly let go of her arm and throat and scooped up the money and ran.

Not all of us are so fortunate to have this type of profound experience with our Higher selves, feeling that light and unconditional love, the oneness of ourselves with that light and that connectedness to all the universe, but we can relate to her story with what we know in our hearts to be true—our real self is the I AM that I AM. If we could just once in our lives, experience this Light and oneness, we truly could not engage again in the fear of letting go and letting God.

In my early years of being in the teachings, I awoke one morning with the remembrance of my I AM Presence. I was being bathed in the light of this Being of Light. I felt the unconditional love and compassion of this Being for me and after bathing in that love for many moments, I became aware that the light and love was me! I was that Being loving myself! That was the beginning of healing in my life to loving myself, knowing my God Self as me.

Receiving Direction from your Higher Self

I also had an experience of my God self as the ever-protecting light of God. I did not see the experience as this Manhattan woman saw and felt, but heard him speak to me for the first time. I was traveling back from Camelot (the Summit Lighthouse headquarters in California) from California to Florida, after a few months of living out there. I had my car packed with all my possessions and was traveling with my two young boys. The car gave me trouble several times, once in the desert, where I could travel no faster than 5 miles per hour. I had been fiercely making the calls for the resolving of the issue, and finally pulled over and opened the hood. A passing motorist stopped and told me what the trouble was and that if I could keep going for another two miles I would fine a mechanic.

After fixing that problem, I noticed my car was burning oil very heavily. I had to put a quart in almost every fill up. The warning light was not working and I was having to frequently check it. By the time I reached Florida I was anxious to keep driving the last leg. I was six hours from home, and evening had arrived. My car was dragging from the wind resistance due to the suitcases stored on the roof, and I could not drive that fast. I had been driving off the main expressway and was taking a deserted highway, as I liked to drive country roads. I had been following a large truck and noticed that he cut my wind resistance quite a bit and I could travel a decent speed. After following him for awhile, I realized he was going a bit too fast and I might be pushing the engine and I was debating to just let him go on, when I heard this voice say to me: "Get off this road now!"

My thought was not immediately to obey, as if I had thought the words myself and would just ignore it. When again, the voice spoke louder as if a person was sitting next to me: "Get off this road now!" So I immediately obeyed and turned off on the next road which led me back to the expressway. I entered the expressway and not five minutes had passed when my lights went dead, the engine stopped and I was rolling down the highway and off an exit ramp and landed in front of an open gas station. It was 11:30 p.m.

My engine had froze and we had to spend the night in the car and wait until morning to call relatives to rescue us. That began my awakening to the voice within, the power of faith and prayer that I had kept ongoing the whole trip to support this car, that probably should have never been able to see me 2,500 miles. And but for my folly of impatience, would have probably seen me home. But following that direction put me safely in front of a gas station where I could call help instead of being stranded on a back road in the pitch dark in the middle of the night with no pavement to pull off the road on.

Discerning Direction

Years passed and I experienced several times a voice of a master or my higher self speaking to me during decrees or novenas. I often did novenas for guidance and help and sometimes in the middle of the novena, I would receive direction on my prayerful requests. One time I could not believe the direction I received from beloved Kuan Yin. I was doing a year-long novena to her, as my problem seemed insurmountable. I wanted to take myself and my children and move to Glastonbury from Florida.

My ex husband knew my wish would be to move to the church headquarters once divorced, and so in our divorce decree he had me agree to not take the children out of Florida to live. I had to make many compromises to have my children at all, as he had filed suit for full custody of the children using my church affiliations to say I was an unfit mother. So one compromise was we agreed to split custody of our four children with two living with their father and two with me.

Kuan Yin told me during my vigil to go to Montana without my children. I was in shock. Why would she recommend I do that? So I challenged the voice and said if that was really her, that I wanted proof. The next day I received a call from my best friend in Montana, asking when was I coming to Montana? She told me she received the prompting from Kuan Yin to call me. She had introduced me to the teachings many years earlier, and was now inviting me to move in with her! And so I did, by the miracle grace of Kuan Yin.

You could say we were both delusional, and the false hierarchy was using both of us, but I knew the power of novenas, the power of protection of prayer and decrees. These voices only spoke to me during decrees, that I was aware of at that time. I sought out an attorney and presented the problem to him. Long story shortened quite a bit, I went to Montana the following spring, left the children with their father under the agreement that all the children would come spend the summer with me, and then we would either agree to their future after the visit, or hire an judge to mediate between us.

Lo and behold, I arrive in Montana, meet and marry Kim within three months and at the end of the summer, the judge awarded me custody of the children, overriding our original divorce decree. I had just experienced the mercy of God through beloved Kuan Yin's intercession. And by my faith and courage to be fearless, I started an entirely new episode in my life of unprecedented growth on the path of personal Christhood.

Love is the Key

What drove me to do many of these fearless things? It was love. I loved God, the teachings, Mother and the masters so much I was willing to override my fear of losing custody of my children. You could accuse me of loving God, the teachings more than my children. I have been accused of that before, by my ex husband, of loving God more than him. I was also abandoned by my mother for many months, for leaving my children. To those outside of the understanding of the love of God, they cannot conceive that there is only God's love and that loving God is loving them, there is no separation. They see competition and separateness.

So I have experienced the pain of following the inner guidance and how the people you love become your greatest foes. And they do not intentionally become your foe, but through their own fears, become instruments of not only their own carnal mind and dwellers, but the open door of outside forces that oppose the light.

It was not for lack of love that I left my children and dared risk losing them. It was love. For you have to love yourself and your purpose of being to be that which you really are - God and to be God love and to follow, through love, the inner guidance. If I had not made that move, I would still have grown on the path. But because of that move, I was in the right place at the right time to meet Kim. We were meant to be together. And I gained a new Alpha for the children.

My soul already knew he was there as I had attended the summer conference in Montana in '87 and again in '88. And when I returned in '88 to Florida, I was driven by the strongest pull and desire to fulfill my being in returning to Montana—now. It was as if I had left a portion of my soul in Montana, and I would not be whole until I returned. My soul knew he was there and I had to meet him. That is the love of the soul to do God's will above any earthly desire or individual.

Follow your heart's love that is anchored firmly in the path of chelaship, and the Christ mind, and you will not go wrong in trusting your discernment. In the process of learning and trusting yourselves in discerning the spirits, you also have learned to let go and be that which you are in God. You have replaced fear with love and trust.

Love is the key to our Christ discernment, our personal victory and Christhood. And we need to carry that victory on to a planetary victory, starting with our church, our towns and then our countries. So many are right there on the path of chelaship—the only obstacle being the fear of Being.

Let us make the year 2004 that year of victory that will see an unprecedented cycle of chelas of El Morya coming into the Will to be Fearless Beings of the Will of God!

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